Suicidal Emotions

Chapter 24

Ok so this took longer than 10 minutes... but I fell asleep so shush😂

Enjoy Babes🎀

Listen to "Breath Me" by Sia. Please do it, it makes the story better😌 Put it on repeat if u have to 😂✋

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(About Two Weeks in Ronnies Recovery)

I called the school. I told them what happened and surprisingly, they allowed me to take off a month of school.

Back to reality..

I can't live without Ronnie.

Have I told you..

I'm back on my cutting?

Being with out Ronnie man,

It's hell.

Right now, I'm literally gliding the blade across my arms.

I wrote "Rsqh + Dhd=<\3"

I washed my new "tattoo" up and wrapped it in bandages.

I grabbed my clothes for today and showered.

I started singing some of Ronnie's songs and started swaying my hips back and forth. I didn't even notice I was crying until I got out of the shower and looked at the mirror and my eyes were a bloodshot red.

I wore a red crop top-nothing under-with some high waisted white skinny jeans. I slipped on my Red/Black/White Jordan's and wore my sweater that had an arrow and said "He's Mine" with hearts everywhere. Ronnie has a matching one, a more guy-ish one that says "Shes Mine".

I started to cry to myself a bit, thinking about it.

We missed our anni. (But Ronnie did give me this really nice card (; )

I don't get to be in his arms.

I cut yet again.

I miss him so much.

I wiped my tears away and grabbed my car keys and headed out the door, and started driving to the hospital, blasting "Do You Got A Bae?"

I started singing along.

Do you got a bae? Quit lying girl.. you ain't gotta play, with me, no, you don't got no bae...

I arrived at the hospital with my bloodshot red eyes again. I asked the lady at the desk if Ronnie was available and she said yes.

I walked into Ronnie's room, and he was sleeping.

I ran up to Ronnie quietly and kissed his neck and he woke up quickly. I loved that.

"Hey Baby!" I said, happy I was with him.

"Dayum Des, you smokin that good stuff? Dem treesssss"

"Shut up dork. I was crying.." I said looking down.

He sat up and lifted my chin.

"Why?"

I sat on his bed next to him and told him what was going on.

Not about the cutting, but about my new depression because he wasn't by my side.

"I want you to be there holding me everytime I wake up. I want to kiss your soft lips everyday and I can't. I need you, Ronnie."

"I'm so sorry, BabyGirl."

"Wait, what's on you arm?" he added, and lifted up the sleeve of my sweater.

"Um nothin-"

"Stop lying."

"*Sigh*... Ronnie.. I started again. I told you... I need you."

"D- Destiny.... Im so fucking sorry that I'm never there. My smartass just had to test Alexander's fucking patience... And now you have to suffer because of me.."

"No, Ronnie, it's my fault. I should have told you about Alex sooner, rather than later. You weren't ready, nor prepared. I told you I had no family. I don't quite refer him as family though..."

"Destiny it's ok. Come here. Lets give my fans an update, yeah?"

"Yup! They're scared."

Ronnie took out his phone and tweeted "Bankers! Im ok, just in the hospital. Find me!😏❤"

I was quite surprised. "Boy, do you know the risk you are taking?!"

"Yup. But love my Bankers."

I kissed him and we talked for hours. This was what I needed.

After about 3 hours passed, we heard screaming girls.

"They found you." I said, smiling.

"Oh my god"

"Pretend to sleep!!"

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I ran to Ronnie's door and a so many girls were there. They seem me and I motioned for them to be quieter and follow me.

They seen him, and they screamed silently.

I walked up to Ronnie and kissed his cheek.

"They're here." I whispered and he awoke.

Screams EVERYWHERE.

"Ronnie I love you!!" A girl yelled, and he replied "I love you too baby girl"

I smiled at everyone and told them that they can take pictures with us one by one.

There was at least 200 girls, so it took a while.

We decided to make a vine.

"Ok, guys, yell 'DO IT FOR THE VINE' on three!" Ronnie said.

I counted down: "1...2....3!!"

I kissed Ronnie on the cheek on camera and then he turned the camera around to the girls.

"DO IT FOR THE VIIIIIIIIIIIIINEEEEEEE"

These girls are so supportive, omg.

The vine was over and he captioned it " Hospital Trip! ❤ #BankerGang"

Today was a good day. [:

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Corny, omg.. but whatever. 😂

Hope u liked:3