And They Were Roommates

In The Closet

"Samuel, I'm not gay." I looked up at him, avoiding eye contact. I could tell that I upset him. Even though I didn't want to, I knew this would hurt him. I'm not gay and that's the end of it. I've never looked at a guy they way I looked at samuel. Samuel is just a very attractive person.

"You're kidding right? This is the part where you say you're not gay but your bi or pan, right? Tell me this is a joke." His voice sounded broken like he was at the edge of tears. It was like he just caught me cheating on him.

"Sam, I'm really sorry but I'm not gay. I've never thought about liking a guy in my life. Not once. Sure you're a handsome guy but-" I was soon cut off.

"Let's get this straight, you can't call me Sam. Secondly, if you're not gay why did you kiss me back? And lastly, if you're not gay why do you think I'm good looking?" I froze.

If I was being honest, I was genuinely scared in that moment. The tone in his voice sounded like pure anger. No one's ever gone off on me like that and I didn't know how to react. I stood there, staring at the ground. I could feel Samuel looking down at me, waiting for an answer.

"Why did you kiss me?" After hearing his question again I ran out the room slamming the door behind me. I can feel my my heart pounding out of my chest. Part of me is glad I left but the other part was worried he'd follow me. It was only my first day on campus and I'm already in too deep.

I see Taylor's door is open and quickly run in. I close the door behind me, making sure not to slam it. Taylor is sitting at her desk painting her nails while Hayley is on her phone. I guess they were having a conversation or something because I could feel their eyes piercing through me.

"Hunter? What are you doing here?" Hayley asked putting her phone down. I hear my door open nextdoor and footsteps. I simply signal to keep quiet and wait to see if the footsteps leave. I feel a heavy weight on my shoulders waiting to hear what happens.

Soon the footsteps fade away and now it's just us three. "Explain, now." I take a seat, ignoring what Taylor said and just try to catch my cool again. My breathing slowly calms down and I feel fine once again.

"Hunter?" I turn my head to see a concerned Taylor. "Everything alright?" All I want to do is tell them what happened but a million things are stopping me. How can I trust them? How do I even explain what happened? How will they react? What if they think I'm gay? What if I am gay?

What if I am gay?

That was the question that was really bothering me. I can't be gay, can I? I've never liked a guy before let alone think about it. I've always thought girls were my type but maybe that's not true. Maybe I'm bisexual? I do think girls are hot. I also think that some guys are hot. I've had girlfriends and it feels nice but I've never felt a spark like people say. With Samuel, its different.

"Hunter?" I snap out of my thoughts and shake my head. "What?" I see Hayley whisper something to Taylor that makes her nod. Taylor moves closer to me and gives me a soft smile. "Listen Hunter, I understand if you don't want to talk abo-" I cut her off and blurt out, "I think I'm gay."

The room was quiet. I wasn't quite sure what I had done and I don't they did either. We sat there in silence for a bit, none of us trying to talk, just thinking. Soon enough our silence is broken by three knocks. That's when my heart starts racing again.

All I could think about was who could be behind that door. "I'm going to hide in the closet, you open the door," I whisper before quietly getting into the closet. I left a crack in the door that allowed me to see who it was and hear what they said.

Hayley opened the door and a familiar voice came from it. "Is Hunter here?" Of course it's Samuel. I see Hayley shake her head. "Saw him walk past the door a few minutes ago. He looked upset." I heard Samuel sigh seeming defeated. "If you see him tell him that I'll be in our room." She nodded then proceeded to close the door.

I hopped out of the closet and let out a sigh of relief. "Alright, now you have to spill it," Taylor said blowing on her nails. I guess I sighed too soon. I took a seat and we sat in silence for a bit. I may have yelled out my feelings but that doesn't mean I want to talk about them.

Hayley put her hand on my shoulder and gave me a soft smile. "Take your time, we've got all day." I nodded but kept my eyes looking down. "Where do you want me to start?"

Taylor gave me a soft smile. "Start with what you feel comfortable with." I nod and take a deep breath. I can see moments with Samuel that flash in my head. My first thought of him, the way he looked at me at In-N-Out, and most importantly, our kiss.

"Well, I guess it started when I first saw him. I'm not afraid to admit when I think a man is handsome and Samuel is more than that. On top of that, we kind of had a moment at In-N-Out. We didn't do anything but we just shared this look and it just felt electric. Then we went back to our dorm room and just chilled for a bit. One thing led to another and we started making out. Then a jerk came and ruined the moment by inviting us to a frat party. After that he tried to kiss me again but I couldn't do it. That's why I think I'm gay."

Hayley and Taylor looked like they weren't expecting me to spill that much. What can I say, I have a big mouth. "Well you're definitely queer," Taylor said with a laugh.

__Authors Note__

I'm so so so so so sorry that I haven't updated in FOREVER. I've just been so busy with the end of my junior year trying to keep my grades up.

What did you think? It's about time he realized he was gay. What do you think will happen next? Will Taylor tell Sam. Sorry, I ment Samuel lol.

Anyways, thanks for reading and don't for get to leave comments and vote! Love y'all!