And They Were Roommates

Lies

"Got your favorite! Chicken sandwich from Wendy's and a chocolate frosty for your fries." Samuel placed the meal down on my desk then took a seat by me. He gave me a quick peck on the cheek and I felt him looking down at me. Every moment with him was special and exciting but one thing wouldn't let me enjoy this moment.

"Am I a terrible person?" Once Charlie left I had a million things running through my mind. How could I be doing this to not only one, but two people? Who am I hurting more? Why does everything have to be so complicated? There was silence. Somehow this is what made it clear that I was terrible. I've never hurt anyone in my life let alone two people at once. Samuels's silence was probably worse than him saying something. At least then he would be forward with me. The silence is just leaving me alone with my thoughts once again.

"Of course not." He turned himself to be able to face me better. "But that doesn't mean what you're doing is not wrong." I kept my head down. The last thing I wanted to do was look at him because I knew he was right. What I'm doing to Samuel is terrible. I would have never thought I would be a cheater. Especially when it came to being with a guy.

Hearing those words from Samuel felt like the whole world was placed on my shoulders. He was right. What I was doing was terrible. Terrible for him and terrible for Charlie. On one hand, I have little to no feelings for Charlie. She's a great person to be around and really gets me. I truly consider her a great friend. On the other hand, Samuel makes me incredibly happy. Sometimes I can't help myself from thinking about him. I don't just think about him, I think about the little things. I think about the way he runs his hand through his hair when he studies. The way he snorts when he laughs but then tries to hide it. Like I said, the little things.

I felt him get up off the bed and heard him exhale. Next thing I knew, he was gone. Part of me felt broken. How could he just leave me like that? The other part of me already knew the answer to that question. Honestly, I think I would have done the same. I need to decide what I'm going to do because I don't know how much longer I have until he really is gone. One thing I did decide on was that I was going to sleep in this situation. 

I woke up to the door opening. I try to see who it is but I can't tell because of the bright hallway light. I look towards the window to see what time of day it was. It seemed to be dark out, possibly 9 pm. Soon the light in the room turns on and I can't help but squint at how bright it is. Whoever is in the room isn't helping me figure out who they are. I can't help but rub my eyes from the brightness. "Hello?"

"It's just me. I came to check up on you." She threw her things down and took a seat at the end of my bed. I honestly had no idea how she got in or why she was here. Samuel must have left the door open. I sat up to face her but was soon pushed back down. I was speechless. My heart was pounding faster than it ever has because I knew what she was trying to do."I was checking up on you but since we're alone I thought we would have some fun." She then got on top of me and started to unbutton my shirt. A million things were going through my mind. The one thing that I couldn't stop thinking about was what Samuel said to me. I'm not a terrible person but that doesn't mean what I'm doing was right. I knew what I had to do but I don't know if I have the strength to do it.

Before I could even try to say something I felt her lips fall on mine. At first, I kissed back but then I realized what I was doing was wrong. I pushed her away and off of me. I could feel her looking at me. As much as I wanted to explain myself, I couldn't. Everything was happening so fast yet it felt like slow-motion. "Charlie, I can't do this. It's hard for me to say this but I have to say what's true."

I was expecting her to panic or freak out but she didn't. She just turned to me and smiled. Yes, smiled. This threw me so off guard that I froze. Maybe she did know about my secret. That can't be it. I am about to tell her terrible news and she seems happy. Was she hoping I would end the relationship soon? I could only hope this is what was happening. If it wasn't, I was in deep trouble.

"It's ok if you're not ready to go that far yet. I just thought that since we've been together for three months you would want to." She gave me a kiss on the cheek and sat up. At this point, I have no idea what's going on. Now I'm definitely going to ruin everything.

"Charlie, I don't think you understand. I can't be with you anymore. I can't keep lying to you. I know what I'm about to say is going to be shocking and I'm sorry for hurting you. You're not the only one I've been hurting, I've been hurting Sam too. I've been cheating on you with him." There was nothing but pure silence. Soon enough the silence was broken by the sound of the door swinging open. It was Samuel. 

He walked into the room, unaware of what was currently happening. "Hey babe. Listen, I'm sorry for just leaving earlier so I got you a gift." We locked eyes but this was the first time I couldn't see how he was feeling. Normally, I could look him in the eyes and know his mood. He's very easy to read. This time was different. 

I looked over at Charlie and saw tears running down her face. "You know what, I really thought you were playing a sick joke on me at first. Turns out the only joke here is me." After she said that she grabbed her things and left the room. Something came over me and I knew I had to chase after her. Samuel grabbed my shoulder to stop me but I kept going. 

"Charlie wait!" I yelled out to her but it wasn't loud enough. I could stop and forget it but something inside me wasn't going to let that happen. I ran down the hallway and practically jumped down the stairs. "Charlie, please listen to me." She turned around for a second but continued walking away. I guess that's all I can do.

When I turned around I saw Samuel waiting at the top of the stairs for me. A rush of emotions filled my body as I run up the stairs and into his arms. I couldnt help myself from sobbing. I don't know what was worse, knowing that I've been lying to Charlie or knowing my secret is going to get out.

Samuel helped me get back to our room because I was an emotional mess. I just flopped on my bed and continued to cry. Thankfully he got into bed with me and spooned me. That made me feel a bit better but not that much. I kept sobbing for multiple reasons. I felt terrible because hurting Charlie wasn't the main reason I was upset. The thing I was most worried about was her telling other people I was with Samuel. I couldn't wrap my head around the fact that people would know I was with a guy.

What am I talking about? This is California. It's one of the most accepting states in America. I need to take a deep breath and relax. I took my own advice and started to loosen up. My crying soon stopped and I was much calmer. I turned to face Samuel to see a small smile on his face. I noticed his eyes were red like he had been crying too. If he did, he was good at hiding it. He placed his hand on my cheek and brushed away my tears with his thumb. 

"Sam, can I ask you something?" His smile grew a bit bigger and nodded. Even after all that drama, I felt at peace laying here in his arms. Even after all the pain I put him through it seemed like everything would be alright. I had never felt safer in my life.

"Of course Hunter. You can tell me anything."

"Will you be my boyfriend?"

__Authors Note__

AHHHHHHHHH! I finally made an update. It has been so long since the last time I last down and decided to write a story. I am super sorry to all of you who were with me in the beginning of this . Thankfully, after a whole year, I finally added a new part. This was Sort of hard considering I haven't written a story in a super long time. I really hope you enjoyed it. Be prepared for more coming your way! 

Here's the part where I ask you questions about the chapter. What did you think? Will Hunter have his secret told? Do you think Samuel will say yes? We will find out next week!

-Jaxon