(Note: mentions of self harm and Suicide)
{Y/N POV}
It started off as one cut. Then two cuts, three cuts, fours cuts. Four cuts turned into many, many more cuts. I only wear long sleeves to work and to see people. They ask my why I wear kind sleeves in such hot weather, I just shrugged it off and say nothing about it. I'm scared if people knew what I was doing to myself. I was scared what Emerson would think if he saw my scared and cut up arms and legs. Would he leave me? Would he think I'm disgusting? What would he think of me? The more I think the more I harm myself.
Remington came over today to hand out with me and Emerson. But Emerson had to go help Sebastian out with something so it's just me and Remington. Remington and I went to the mall and went in hot topic to find some new jeans for him and I. I got a text from some one and it was Emerson.
Emerson
Hey where are you?
{Y/N}
At the mall with Rem why?
Emerson
Can you come home?
{Y/N}
Why Emerson your scaring me.
Emerson
Please just come home we need to talk..
{Y/N}
Okay fine I guess....
Read at 3:45pm
"Hey rem Emerson wants me to come home so can we go?" I asked he looked at me with sympathy in his eyes. I was confused but he nodded and we left to head home. When we got there Remington walked me up to the door and hugged me tight and I hugged back but not as tight as I usually do to him. I walked into the house and seen Emerson sitting on the couch with a box in his hands. I walked closer to see what the box was... oh no.
"Y/N what is this?" He asked me and got up wavering the box in-front of me. I looked down and began to feel tear swell up into my eyes. He picked my head to look at him "y/n why?" He asked with sympathy in his voice. I shrugged and started crying while looking down again. I heard him sigh and he took my hands into his. "Y/n you know you can talk to me about anything that is bothering you. What going on?" He said/ asked. I just shrugged again not wanting to speak.
He pulled the sleeves of my shirt up a bit to see pink lines decorated my skin. I felt something wet fall onto my wrist. I looked up to see Emerson have tears in his eyes looking at the cuts. He looked at me and I started crying even more than I already was. He hugged me and rested his head on top of mine. I was crying into his chest while he hummed "ms. Infamous" into my ear.
"I can't do it anymore Emerson." I say into his chest "do what anymore?" He asked. "Life." I said he pulled my head up to look at him "look you are the most beautiful person I know. It hurts me that someone or something is getting to you like this-" he was saying till I cut him off "it's my dad" I said in a whisper. Emerson's face turned from sympathy to anger. "What's he doing?" He asked anger dripping in his voice "saying I was a mistake and that I don't belong in this world with you and the guys." I said And started to sob into his chest.
"I just want to be gone." I said and I felt him pick me up and sat on the couch. "Don't say that you belong here just like the rest of us. Imagine how Daniel,Luis, Rem, Seb, Monica, and Larissa would feel if you were to kill yourself. Imagine how I would feel. I love you Y/N I love you so goddamn much." He said and started crying. " I love you to Emerson." I said than started crying while hugging him. He hugged back and sobbed into my neck. We just held each other the rest of the day before Remington and Monica came over to hang out.
"I love you." I heard Emerson whisper into my ear while we were watching a movie. "I love you to." I said and kissed him and he kissed back and pulled away to continue watching the movie. I cuddled more into him and he wrapped both arms around my Body.
