Sincerely your Killer(Ongoing)

Chapter 10: Killer Voices

Thursday 12th (11 months, 3 weeks, 25 days)

They say to apologise is everything and maybe, yes it is. It can change your life with a simple word; but how you do it can differ the outcome.

For the past month, Destiny had been thinking about Jason: she'd go to the park and see her and Jason with a frisby, she'd go home and see him in her kitchen making waffles, she'd go to school and literally see him.

Destiny was reading, she walked down the corridor that had her lockers stored in, and was currently departing; as her head was hooked to the book, she didn't realise Jason's was approaching, she bumped into him the book fell to the floor however Jason caught her by the arm before she crashed to the ground.

"Watch it Rain" he said with a sigh helping her to stand on her own two feet, before walking off. The nickname he gave Destiny butterflies, but she shook her head to come back from the clouds.

"Jason wait" she called for him running after her "former" friend.

A small groan came from the boy and he turned around meeting Destiny's gaze "what?" he asked, however his tone sounded aggressive but he didn't seem to mean to; it just came out that way from the heat of the moment.

Destiny flinched from the sudden anger in his tone, however she was determined to apologize "i'm so-" she was cut off by Jason.

"I know, it doesn't mean i want to forgive you..." he said with a sigh, his grey blue eyes looked sad a bit like the rain.

"Jason let me speak" Destiny said before he could say anything else. " Im sorry, i said it so many times before i didn't mean to hurt you, and i certainly didn't mean to laugh. I didn't understand, i didn't know you felt that way about me".

Jason scowled "i don't feel ANYTHING  for YOU"  he said anger flowing through him.

Destiny flinched again "im sorry" she repeated "i miss you" she muttered quietly.

Destiny's sweet words made Jason's scowl soften, he looked calmer however still angry.  He left turning around and ignoring her, he was gone by the time Destiny tried to speak again

Looks like we'll have to MAKE him listen.

The next day Destiny was at school at lunch she sat down on a chair alone he yes fixeds onto Jason all night she had stayed up finding ways to apologise however, she kept obtaining voices in her head voices that repeatedly told her bad things. Things like:
Make him listen, kill him he causing you grief, why are you apologizing he doesn't care, your a serial killer he will never care, you think he wants to be friends with you anyway after what you did, do you really expect him to be friend with a serial killer? what if he hates you?

The harsh voices were enough to drive a person insane but... Destiny was always, and had always been mostly insane so it didn't really work although... it did get her thinking about the possibilities if he found out...what if he did hate her?... she would lose him again!

It seemed Destiny had been staring too long as Jason who had been talking to Adam caught a glimpse of her and scowled, he muttered something to his friends and got up leaving the bistro.

Destiny finished up her smoothie and grabbed her cross bag running out after him "Jason! Jason! Wait!" 

Jason didn't stop moving he continued to walk "leave me alone Destiny"  he said in a hurt tone it was obvious he didn't want to talk but Destiny wouldn't take no for an answer.

"NO! Jason please stop i need to talk to you" She said running after him, her body blocked him standing in his way but he just walked around her yelling to leave her alone again.

He doesn't want to talk to you i told you he hates us. The voice said in her head but it made her more determined

"JASON! Please!" she said again body blocking him once again. She started tearing however this did not make Jason a less angry he stopped walking, and glared at her his cold grey blue eyes staring through her.

Jason looked at her "are you Deaf ?! leave me alone!" he yelled angrily pushing her forcefully out the way before walking off

Destiny fell to the floor and cried pulling her knees up to her face and resting her head on her kneed as she cried.

We told you! We Knew he wouldn't forgive us...

What's the point? he said to leave him alone he doesn't care...

Why even try? We lost him for good...

Why do we even care we should hate him...

He hurt us too, hes selfish...

Kill him...

Kill him...

Destiny looked up at the locker infront of her a dark expression creased on her face, her chocolate eyes cold and dead. "i will not kill him" she said determined to not have a breakdown in front of the school.

She cleaned  herself up in the bathroom and headed out like nothing had happened and set of for English...her favorite.

Later, Destiny forgot that's she sat next to Jason in Geography, she had made a perfect plan to apologise but when she walked it to sit down she that Jason was sitting near Adam, he had changed his seating position again.
Destiny's was unable to concentrate on her work and had ended up with a detention. She sighed and looked behind her at the boy who had been her best friend since she was 2.

Destiny was tired from the hard day of all the apologising, crying and school work. She went to her dad's car - that she had taken for the day -  and hopped in; after quite forcefully throwing her bags in the back. She pulled out and drove off the voices blinding her mind.

Good for nothing...

He was right there, we could have done it...

Your weak, we could have killed him...

He hates us...

It's your fault he hates us...

We will be alone, because of you...

We don't need him, we have boss...

The voices kept coming and coming, and Destiny kept crying; it would be wise to pull up before she smashed her car or something, yet she was nearly home. "shut up! Shut up! Shut up!" She screamed, shaking her head trying to block out the voices. At this rate it be the death of her, all the dark voices all the horrible words.

The thought of killing Jason sickened her, how could she be so heartless to even think about killing him? He was so perfect and she was so... not. It was unreasonable, disgusting she couldn't bear it. There the voices kept coming becoming worse and worse killing her inside more and more

The car swerved as Destiny had her breakdown in the car, at first she was on the other side of the road then...

Crash...

The words kept swirling in her head, 'your fault, your fault, heartless brat'.

Where was she? She couldn't open her eyes and she was certainly not in the car...what was that smell? Oil? What happened? Destiny let out a large groan as she felt pain! Pain everywhere: Pain in her head, arms, legs, back, belly, chest everywhere, it hurt, it hurt so badly!!

The oil, the glass the pain it was hard to realise but.. DESTINY WAS IN A CAR CRASH!

She lifted her head and tried to open her eyes, she took it all in, the disaster and destruction. Yet, there was ringing in her ears. It was hard to hear anything that was going on. She was on the bonnet of a red Ford Fiesta, it was not her car, her fathers was overlapping the Ford!
You could barely tell but it was a old holda; one he's had his whole life. Glass was everywhere she had most likely been propelled out of the  window screen. She couldn't hear anything, but saw a woman in the Ford bleeding from her head... maybe this this was the way Destiny dies...