Complicated Jace wayland

16.

He cupped my face with both of his large hands. It took everything I had in me to take my hands and grab his wrist and pull his hands away from me. I couldn't keep doing this to myself, I couldn't let him do this to me. I don't want to need his touch or his presence. He tells me that he loves me but it's not the same type of love I feel. If he loved me he wouldn't treat me the way he does. When you love someone you don't push them away you pull them closer.

He frowns at my actions but doesn't try to grab me again. I take a couple steps back from him, putting some space between us.

"Prim what's wrong."
"Don't." I silence him quickly.
"Everyone calls me Rose." I spit back.
"I didn't think I was like everyone else."
"Well you thought wrong." I say back swallowing down the lump in my throat.
"What's going on Pri..Rose." He says with a heavy sigh.
"I can't keep doing this."
"Doing what." He argues back.
"Caring too much because I end up just getting hurt." I tell him looking him straight in the eyes so he would know he was the one hurting me. He just looks at me. No explanation for how he has been acting.
I go to walk out of the pool but he grabs my arm.
"Rose please."
"Shouldn't you be helping clary with her runes, that's very important." I say suggestively. That the first time me and jace kissed was when he was drawing on a rune for me so I knew I would hit a nerve. He immediately drops my arm and I quickly grab my clothes and walk out.

when i make it to my room i shut the door and rest by back against it. taking slow deep breaths. after a few minutes i push off and grab a long t-shirt and fresh underwear. i put them on quickly and crawl into bed.

i'm woken up by a loud beeping noise a very annoying beeping noise. i roll over and silence my alarm clock. i grab my thick comforter and pull it off of me. i'm not ready for today not ready to see jace gawk all over a girl that has a death wish and hasn't been there for him for practically his whole life but hey what's new.

i get up and grab my black skinny jeans with rips at the knees, black tank top, with my leather jacket and my doc martins. i pull my hair up into a high ponytail and fill in my brows and some mascara. i walk over to a drawer and lay my hand on a scanner that scans my hand and opens, revealing multiple types of swords and daggers. i grab two seraph blades and 4 daggers and two throwing knives. hey you never know what's gonna happen in the shadow world. i walk over to my full body mirror and laugh at my appearance.
"looking better in black than the widows of your enemies." i say with an airy laugh.

i grab my phone and stella and walk out the door making sure to lock it behind me. i take my time to walk to ops not rushing to be in uncomfortable tension with three people wasn't really on my to do list today.

i reach ops and see the whole team already there. oh great they were waiting on me can't wait to get shit about this later. izzy walks up to me and links our arms. i smile at her sweet gesture and lean into her.

"about time. can we leave now," clary says turning and batting her lashes at jace.

"look here little red i do not have the patience for you today so watch your tone." i say giving her a look that could kill.

"is that a yes then." clary says completely ignoring my threat. jace just nods his head and she marches towards the front doors like she is in charge, as if. gosh today is gonna be a long on.  i let out a huff and start walking with izzy at a slow pace.