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Chapter 4- Progress

Zaynab

"Hey, come to bed",I look at Khalid who's washing his hands.

"One sec".

He turns around after wiping his hands with his towel.

"What's wrong?",he asks me and walks past me into our bedroom. I follow him and get in bed beside him and watch as he takes off his watch.

"What?", he looks at me and chuckles.

"Nothing", I smile.

He hums then leans back in bed with his hand over his forehead.

"Tired?"

"I don't even know".

"You know. I wanted to talk to you",he removes his hand and looks at me with a serious look.

"Yeah?".

"So you fertility was low right? But you conceived and gave birth to a healthy baby. Can you still have kids or did you check on that yet?".

"Uh, same thing they said before. I don't know. There's a chance, I guess?".

"Good. I want to have kids",he blurts out.

"Now?",I ask him with a raised eyebrow.

"I know you're still going through all that is happening. But ..... I want kids. I thought it'd be okay ... Ya'know. But after seeing Azeez and the rest of the kids. I want to be a dad as well",he explains.

"Oh. I get you. Whatever happens. I don't know, like you know I can't contr-".

"I know. I just- I was thinking, we could maybe get some help on it? I mean there's other ways to have kids. We can try it".

"Khalid, I understand you, don't get me wrong. But with all this? Not now. I can't, I don't think I can go through any pregnancy kinda ting right now. Not with my son still missing",I tell him. He hums and rubs his head before laying back down.

"Khalid"

"I understand. Forget I said anything. Go to sleep. We have to meet with Taibat tomorrow",he whispers then he faces his right side.

"Khalid".

"I said. I get it. Okay. Am not mad or anything. I just think I've waited enough. I understand what you're going through isn't easy but- just forget it. Main focus is your son".

"What's that supposed to mean? Khalid am talking to you. Khalid",I shake his shoulder but he pushes my hand away.

"Zaynab am serious. Am tired okay. Go to sleep. Like I said. I UNDERSTAND", he snaps at with his tone increasing after each word.

"Okay", I whisper and lay down. I glance at him then turn to my right. I place my hand on his shoulder like I always do, but this time instead of embracing it like he usually does, he just carefully brushes it off and scoots further away from me.

"Khalid. What's all this now? Ah. Do you want me to be shouting this late? I said I understand but not now. This isn't the time for me. Am not physically or mentally prepared for it YET. I didn't say never. You being angry with me makes no sense whatsoev-".

He stands up abruptly in the middle of my sentence then he grabs his phone and just walks out of the room.

"Khalid"I yell but he doesn't reply and just slams the door.

"Ah ah. Ewa bami o (please come to my aid). What kind of a stupid behavior is this one performing now?",I whisper to myself. I shake my head and hiss then lay back in bed.