I don't want to leave || Soobin x Reader

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*3 month ago

Y/n's POV

My relationship with Soobin is doing good now. And my work to him too is doing well.

I miss Ning so much.

*cough

I feel my hand got wet as I cover it to my mouth. I look at my hand and shock to see blood in my hand. My feet are shaking. I feel nervous. I wash my hand and get change upstairs and went directly to the doctor.

.

"You stage 2 breast cancer."
"C-ca-cancer?"
"I'm sorry to say, miss l/n." I cried hard when I heard it from the doctor.
"It can be healed right doc?" He nodded. He explain everything to me.
"But there is a lot of possibility that you will die."

Why me? I don't know what to do.

What about Soobin? He can't take it if he know. He can't know about this. He needs to be prepared and he needs to forget about me so that its not hard for him to move on.

.

I went home and texted him.

'Soobin, can you come here in my house now?'

He replied quickly

'Of course, wait for me there.'

I don't want to leave him. I don't want to die. I want him to help me get over this illness but I just can't tell him about this.

*dingdong

I open the door and let him in.
"Why?" He ask
"Why? Aren't I allowed to call my beloved boyfriend here in my house." He hug me and said. "Of course you can. Anytime." I hug him back tighter. I look up to hold my tears.

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*sitting in my bed and Soobin at the sofa

"Why are you so silent?" I look at him a little startled and nervous. "Ah, nothing." I sit beside him at the sofa. "Its summer now. I want to go to America." I said that make him shock. He look at me in disbelief.

"America? That's too far. You're gonna leave me here?" I look down. "I want to go there and visit Ning for this summer. I will be there for 2 months" I added. He sigh, I'm sure he's angry. This is my plan, I need to do this.

"2 months? The whole summer? Do you really want to leave me here?" He look away. "I miss Ning. I always spend my time to you that I can't even talk to him and answer his calls. I just want to be with Ning for that short time, Soobin and you're not allowing me to go? You're my boyfriend you must understand me." I said. I'm he hates me now.

"So you're saying that Hueningkai is more important than me. That I am the reason why you're not with him now? I am the reason why you can't answer his calls and talk to him all you want?!" He raise his voice. Tears are now rolling down my cheeks.

"I just want to see Ning, Soobin." I cried looking straight to his eyes. "You're just my boyfriend, you have no right to say If I will go or not. I am just letting you know about me going to America, I'm not asking permission to you. Now if you're not gonna support me then don't, I'm not forcing you." His tears drop to his pants.

"Just your boyfriend?" He ask in disbelief. My words hurt me the most. "Just your boyfriend? I am just your boyfriend. Okay, then go to America all you want." He said and walk out of the room and bang the door.

A minute later I can hear his car. He drives so fast. I hurt him.

"Forgive me, Soobin. I just need to do this. This is for your own good too. I'm so sorry." I cried hard as I could.

*2 hour later

I receive a text message and its from Yeonjun.

'Y/n, what happened? Why is Soobin like this?'

'Like what?'

'I think he's gonna throw all the thing in his house, and he's so drunk.'

Soobin! What are you doing? All I want is you to forget me not to be like that.

'I don't know what's happening to him'

After I reply a tear drop on my phone.
I dialed Ning's number.

"Ning." I started

"What happened? Are you crying?"

"Can I go there to America?"

"Of course, anytime, Y/n. You're welcome here."

"I don't want here anymore, Ning."

"Shhh, don't cry. When will you come here?"

"The day after tomorrow."

"See you soon, don't cry."

I say my goodbye and end the call.