[A/N: A few weeks after Jiyeon's letter to Hyomin..]
Dear Jiyeon,
I’m sorry if it took me a long time to write back. I just didn’t know what to say. Eunjung was the first boyfriend I ever had. We were so young, not even a teenager. Even back then he’s always been what he is. You know, that boy, everybody has a crush on. Yeah, that was him.
But me, I was just a zero. I wasn’t like this. Then suddenly one day, I guess I kinda fixed myself up. That’s when Eunjung noticed me. We began texting then later on he courted me. One day, I said yes. We were Romeo and Juliet, except our parents knew about us. We were living a fairy tale. I loved him and he loved me back. It was perfect.
Then one day, I don’t know. He began being cold to me. I didn’t know why. Did I do something wrong? Did I say something he didn’t like? Did he get tired of me? I don’t know. I guess I never knew. He was my first, Ji. When he ended it between us I didn’t know how to deal with it. I cried and cried and cried ‘till I ran out of tears. My happily-ever-after walked away without telling me why.
After the break up, I decided to move on, from one to another, then to another. That’s when you met me. You met me like that. You knew me like that. I dated jerks, nice guys, everyone who courted me, or liked me. I dated all of them trying to find the one, the one who’ll make me forget, but I never did, didn’t I? I was always the one who dumped them all, like the way Eunjung dumped me. I left them all without saying why.
On our first day in college, when I saw him again, I felt a tingle within me. It was him, Ham Eunjung, right there. But, I played it cool. Remember the three of us hanged out together before we met the rest of the gang? I made friends with him because I wanted to ask him why. Why did he turn his back on me? But before I could, Hwayoung came. He came and… I don’t know. I fell. I just… fell for him, like the way I fell for Eunjung. It felt like, instead of giving me an answer, God gave me a second chance.
Every time I’m with Hwa, everything has colors. Everything makes sense, and every wrong thing doesn’t seem to bother me anymore. He made me forget, Jiyeon. He made me forget about the guy who turned his back. He made me forget about all the questions I always wondered about before I sleep. Why did Eunjung leave me? I guess I never really got to ask. I guess I didn’t care anymore.
After I read your message, I didn’t know how to react. I’m sorry, Ji. I didn’t know you felt that way for him. I’m so sorry. And you’re right, there’s no way I’m getting back together with Ham Eunjung. There’s no way I’m breaking up with Hwa. I got my second chance and I’m not messing this one up. I love him. I love Ryu Hwayoung so much.
I know Eunjung deserves someone better. Jiyeon, don’t pull yourself down too much. You’re pretty, you’re smart, you’re funny, a lot of guys like you, you just don’t notice. You’re a lot better than me. Please take care of Eunjung. I can’t be there for him anymore. Thank you for being a good friend to everyone.
Love,
Hyomin
