[ Namjin ] Two years

11 - Yoongi

Jimin was a few desks away in front of me in class today, not direcly in front of me... Weird. He keeps turning around to talk to me. Why Don't you just come to your usual place instead of breaking your voice ? 

Then I see it, or more like him. Wonho. He enters the room and smiles at me. Or Jimin. I don't know it's weird, normally he comes in the class, sits and sleeps the whole lesson through. What does make me question my whole existence is when Wonho just sits next to my best friend and casually kisses his cheek. Jimin doesn't flinch but blushes and smiles at him.

Okay, now, what the fuck.

I decide to not interfere and ask about what just happened to Jimin later. I just change places and sit in the farrest corner available in the class. I'll just listen to music and leave them alone. I saw that Jimin tried to talk to me but got really confused at why I wasn't there. He looked for me and spotted me. He threw me a 'what the fuck' look and I gestured him to take his phone. He took it out and we began talking by text.

Lil Beach

Me: I thought I'd leave you alone with mister Jerk.
Me: You seemed really close.

Lil Beach: That's not nice...
Lil Beach: Well... It's a long story, I'll tell you later ^~^

Me: K

Maybe I shouldn't have been so cold but at the same time, he didn't even tell me he had a little boyfriend. Nor that his boyfriend was Wonho... I feel kind of hurt. Not because I felt like something more than friendship was going on between us but he didn't tell me anything about him and Wonho. Am I not worthy of his trust ? Or is it just me being a pathetic and paranoid clingy friend ? 

Shit, I should have been more expressive towards him... I don't show much feelings to anyone but; to my best friend ? I feel bad... Shit I should've told him earlier he means so much to me. In a friend way ! I'm still not ready to tell him about my unsure feelings towards him... 

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Ugh, that was the longest lesson I've had in a looooong time.

I hoped Jimin will explain his situation with Wonho, but I guess he forgot because as soon as class ended, they headed outside to eat something together. Jimin didn't even look at me when he left. Well shit.

Guess I'll hang out with my bestest friend; solitude.

I go sit on a bench under a blossom tree and put my headphones on. I listen to some music and stay there for a while, hoping Jimin will at least look my way instead of devouring Wonho's eyes. He's sitting on the grass just a few meters away and eating a salad while talking and laughing with Mister Muscles.

Solitude stayed with me for a good twenty minutes until Jimin finally comes to me. I look at his past spot and notice that Wonho's gone. So Jimin really came to me because he had nobody else to go to. That's great.

"Where's the Asshole ?" I ask, obviously talking about his boyfriend. He takes it as a joke and laughs. I was dead serious though.

"Oh, Wonho's just hanging out with his friends a little... So I came to you..."

"Aren't you gonna explain ?" I ask " 'cause last time I checked, you told me everything going on in your life just a few days ago and now I feel invisible... Plus, you used to hate that guy !" I thought.

"Well, um, I was, I don't really know why I was at his house, but yesterday I ended up in front of his room's window and he found me on his front loan. We ended up talking and wemighthavekissed and wemightbetogethernow ~~~~~"

"Um, Jimin you seem to forget a little detail."

"What ?" He asks and I respond as soon as that word exits his mouth: "He bullied you, he manipulated you and now you say you're together and that he likes you ?" I say, controlling my tone. He saw that I almost screamed at him and started getting emotional. "Jimin, please think about it... Don't just throw yourself in his arms when we both know he's just a manipulative selfless, attention seeking little bitch" That could crush my head in two seconds... 

"You don't get it, do you ? He's changed." He says "Jimin, open up your eyes. I'm your best friend and we've known each other for so long, I thought you'd be able trust me by now... I know bullshit, and I can see that what he's doing here is bullshit and you're just taking it as if it didn't even exist ! I bet he said some nice words to you and that made you feel like he'd changed but he DIDN'T. He's still the same piece of crap as before. Believe me, Jimin, he'll break your heart and I really don't want to see you devasted by that guy. Especially by that guy..."

"Well, I'm glad to see that you don't want me to be happy... Thanks bestie."

"Jimin, don't take it like that. Of course I want you to be happy, but you've known him for so long and he's going to manipulate you."

"But you know I've liked him for so long and he gave me a chance, why won't you at least be happy for me ?"

"I am. Really. I'm just warning you."

"He's changed."

On that note, he left to go near his new boyfriend who just came back, leaving me alone. He's so naive... It breaks my heart to know that in less than a week, he'll probably get dumped by that asshole. He should bbe with someone who deserves him.

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Heya !

My exams are over, I can now write for two whole months (Maybe not, we'll see) after that, hello college... I'm not stressed

I didn't get my results for now, I'll probably update you Wednesday.

I'll know Monday if I get my diploma (which I worked hard for and think I got)

And Tuesday, I get my diploma and my results.  And then, I'm gonna party with friends 'till like 2 or 3 AM so, lets say I won't be uplaoding until then.

UGHHH I worked so hard to get that fricking piece of paper, I would scream if I don't get it...

Well then, see ya lovelies

~Bye~