[ Namjin ] Two years

16 - Jimin

I spent about three hours at Hoseok's. It's been a while since we last talked. I got busy because of school and Wonho. I realised we didn't see each other very much when he told me he was seeing someone, Taehyung. It doesn't really surprise me, Hobi is quite the charmer. He's never really alone. This time was kind of shocking though because Taehyung is way younger than him. However, I feel like Taehyung isn't just for sex. He'll be here for a while.

I leave his house at about 7 p.m. To my surprise, Jungkook was waiting for me outside, his arms crossed. He didn't look very happy. Maybe Dad told him to stop playing... I try to get past him but he just holds me back and gets in front of the door. "Hey, what the fuck ?"
He looks at me, waiting for me to tell him something... But what ? He stays there for a while and decides to tell me what's on his mind only when he sees I'm clueless.
"You really don't have anything to tell me ?" He says but I just stay clueless. "Yoongi told me something today. Apparently, you are with someone." He says poking, but not in a good way. I'm still a little confused but I kind of get what he's up to. I'm fearing the following minutes.
"Why didn't you tell me you were with Wonho ?" he says, quite direct. I didn't expect him to know about us so soon because I just wanted it to be a secret. I also feared his reaction... He knows about my troubled past with Wonho. He's hated him ever since he started pushing me around the halls at school. 
"I kind of feared this very moment..." I say. He looks at me, and I can see disappointment. "Look, I know you don't like him but he's changed so much..."
He doesn't seem to believe it.
"If you say so... Let me know when he dumps you for someone else though..." he says getting inside the house.
"Hey!" I shout and he looks back at me then says "He did that to me"
What? I stand still in the hallway.
He goes upstairs and locks himself in his room before I can question him.

I stay in the living room for about three hours, contemplating the TV's black screen. I'm playing with my fingers, thinking about Jungkook. When did him and Wonho ever happen?
The doorbell gets me out of my trance and I rush to the door, hoping it's Wonho, so I could talk to him. I open the door to see Yoongi with puffy red eyes.
"I miss you." he says "I didn't see you for a while, I thought I could handle it but I can't. It hurts me that it was Jungkook that told me you were leaving... I thought I could be happy for you, but I can't. Wonho just fucked your brain up and it's really not for the best..." he says. I don't blame him and I can't be angry at him. I missed him too but he just made me realise how much of a douchebag I was.
I didn't know what to do with Yoongi, right there, waiting for me to do something. So I stood there, pretty uncomfortable. He sighed before saying "I don't want to be the bad guy... I just wanted to protect you from him..." he said, and I start to lose it, I can't hold back my tears. I feel like shit.
"It's not your fault... I did this to myself. If I didn't crave for attention, I wouldn't have gone to the first one that showed some interest in me, even if it wasn't in the right way... And that ruined our friendship, it's all my fault" I say, crying. He sees my distress and directly hugs me tight against him. "It's not your fault... It's nobody's fault." he says patting my back. "Our friendship is not over and it never was  believe me."
I nod shyly and look at him, thankful for his kind words and his nice gestures.

We stay like that a few seconds before he smiles and passes a hand through my hair. I smile back and his face gets close to my face.
He kisses me.
I don't stop him but I decide to not go further. I'm not mad at this kiss, but it does confuse me.

He blushes a little and smiles at me. I smile back and he tells me Goodbye, waving shyly. I kiss his rosy cheek and let him go.

I don't know what went through me, I never thought I'd kiss my best friend. I have to admit that, before we became real friends, I had a minor crush on him, but it never really went further.
But now that I think about it, he is really cute. 

That night, I dreamt of that kiss, torturing myself with thousands of questions. Until something ran through my head, I'm leaving in less than a week...
Wow, totally forgot about that.
That broke my heart, not only because I won't see him but also because he'll have to walk past my house and remember I'm not there anymore. I know he's sensitive and could cry for anything. That tore my heart apart.
Instead of  dreaming of his happy face before kissing me, I have nightmares of his saddened glare when he sees my house everyday. I also fear that he'll forget me and won't speak to me anymore and, even though I wasn't awake, I could feel tears dribbling down my cheeks.
I'm so selfish... 

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Hey, sorry for this late (short) chapter
I didn't expect college to do me like that

Anyhoe, here it is
I can't promise a chapter coz I'm very
busy but, I'll pray for me

~ Bye bye lovelies ~
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