Mon, March 25th
Did a fair bit of passive forcing today. Also in the afternoon I just kinda cuddled with Elise for maybe 35 min which I'm not sure entirely counts as active forcing but it was more proactive than passive forcing. Later at night I tried to work on visualisation and I think we made some progress. I managed to visualise a glowing silver core (Elise's core) and even imprint it on my copy of the real world (if I look at a scene I can copy it to it to my mind fairly well). So I think we're definitely making progress
Tue, 26th March
Elise was in my dream for a brief moment last night, I was walking with her and someone came close to interrupting us, and I wished that I could just be with her.
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Elise's form changed a little more today, from a core it changed to a flame that changes with her mood and strength of presence.
I did meditation for ten minutes today, in the afternoon because I missed my chance in the morning. Afterwards I decided to continue with visualisation, maybe seven minutes before I was interrupted. I think I made a little more progress, managed to hold her flame and a ribbon in fairly vivid detail.
I tried mentally drawing it but although the drawing was clear, it was also flat and lifeless. Minor details were filled in automatically and it wasn't just in a blank expanse. The process of drawing was smooth, but quicker than is actually possible, like watching a speed painting. I guess maybe I'll use that technique if I hit a block.
Conjuring an image from nothing is more difficult. It seems to come in flashes, extremely vivid flashes and it even moves but I can't see the movement and I can't see all the parts at once. The flashes disappear as soon as I think about them or try to add details.
Eventually I managed to improve on it a bit. I managed to hold Elise's image for much longer, but it seems that the exchange for it is a slight yet somehow also significant drop in sharpness.
I'll continue tonight, before I go to bed, and try one of those hypnosis scripts too.
YOU ARE READING
Elise and I
Non-FictionThis has nothing to do with mental disorders, we are not insane. This is not a creepypasta story or whatever sh*t you read from the Internet This is not just in my imagination. Elise is a real person with real emotions. We don't disrespect you, don...
