8 Letters© |JACHARY|

Hard

Sometimes, it's hard to act like i don't think about you. It's hard seeing you with him. I just wish could be me who will kiss you. I just wish it will be me who will be alowed to touch you like he did. It's hard be the one who will listen to you, everytime he hurts you. It's hard when you two making out in our livingroom. I wanna sream. I wanna cry. He doesn't deserve your love. You can't imagine how much it hurts Zach. I'm your best friend and i know everything about you, but there are so many things you don't know about me.

It was my birthday right at the end of the night, it was the first time he hurt you bad and you cried. You deserves something better than him. You deserves all happines from the world. Why don't you see it? Why you always keep runing back to him? I know i said i'll be your friend but it's too hard.

I remember the night when you two broke up. You blocked his number and then you called me instead. You cried so hard. It was hurting me. I never want to see you like this again. That's my mission fix you when you're sad. You falled asleep in my bed. I slept on the floor because you didn't want me to leave the room.

After two weeks you was back with him. You was so happy and i was so happy for you even inside, my heart was bleeding. Daniel asked me if i'm okay. I said yes, but i wasn't. Daniel noticed my love for you Zach why don't you see it? Maybe you do, maybe you just don't want to see it.

I was crying. You seems so happy but i'm broken. It's hard to act like i'm okay when i'm not. You heard it. You heard me crying. You cared about me, but not the way i wanted it. I told you to leave. You get mad. You said that you are my best friend and you thought we can say each other everything. Best friend. The word made me cry even more. That's how i looks like in your eyes. Jack Avery your best friend. That's all i ever will be. I wanted you to stay and at the same time i wanted you to leave. You left. My sobs wakes the whole house. Daniel was huging me and he said everything will be okay. But i know he was lying.

The day after, you came to my room and you aplogzied to me. You said you didn't mean it and that you was just sad for seeing me crying. You was asking me why i was crying. I didn't told you. Now you know. You seems sad when Daniel came and i was talking to him. It was so obvious that he knows what's going on. You was sad because i told him and not you?

After our little talk when you told me i'm your best friend no matter what, things get better. We was hanging again. We was talking like we used to before. But you know when it's something too perfect it will end soon. And our end came that moment when the girl screamed. Jachary is so real! That's what she said. I was huging you but you pushed me away. "I have boyfriend" , "he's like my brother''. Those words hurted me. Jeremy was mad at you after this.

The other day i saw you with big bursie under your eye. I asked you what happend. You said it was nothing. When i asked you if he did this to you, you said you don't wanna lie to me. You said it's not the first time so it's okay. No! It's not okay Zach. It's not okay when someone beat you. I was mad. So mad. Me and your "awsome" boyfriend Jeremy got into fight. If you'll not told me to stop i think i'll kill him. Your voice stoped me. The voice i love the most. You was scared. I didn't mean to scare you. You didn't asked me if i'm okay. No, you asked him. The boy who was beating you whole time. HIM before me, Your best friend. I was nobody to you. Just a stranger

You came into my room and you was yelling at me. I don't know what you said and at the moment i didn't care. You stoped talking to me again. It was all my fault, as you said. This day i losed my best friend. I miss you. I miss you every second of my life.

I'M ACTUALLY WRITING THIS STORY FOR MYSELF. ENJOY YOUR SPOOKTOBER GUYS :)