Have you ever missed someone to the point where it fucking hurts? When you start to think about it it just makes you ashamed because you feel like shit. It didn't ever make scence to me until recently. I start to realise that almost everything I've done in my life has made everything toxic. One toxic friendship that fucked you up, you tried to make it seem like your fine even though you are vary aware your not. and it hurts you more than anything else.
You try and be this amazing person
