The Secrets We Keep

The Kindness Of Words

Kara POV

Winn and I sit at his desk whilst I devour takeaway boxes in rapid succession, I can feel the eyes of several people watching me including J'onn and Alex, but I ignore them out of a need to satisfy my cravings.

'Are you going to tell him about the baby?' Winn asks and my mood drops again.

'I don't know Winn, we don't even know why he is here, I don't want to get my hopes up that he is going stay, only for him to leave again. I don't think my heart can take anymore. I don't want to raise this baby on my own but if I have to, I will.' I sigh.

'I think when you are ready, you should talk with him and find why he's come back. Most importantly at the end of the day no matter what happens, that baby is gonna have an ass-kicking agent for an aunt and a tech genius for an uncle so you will not be raising this baby alone, okay?' I smile,

'Winn I haven't said thank you for everything you've done for me these last months, you've been incredible and the best friend I could ask for. I really appreciate it, I know I always don't say it but-' I don't finish as he interrupts me.

'Kara, after all you've done for me, it's the least I could do. Now eat your potstickers, I'm trying to be a genius over here and the smell of them is distracting me.' I only laugh and do what he says.

After finishing my unconventional breakfast I head up to the roof to get some air, just as I open the door I see a woman leaning over the edge,

'I'm sorry, I didn't realize anyone was up here-' I stop as the woman turns around and I notice it's her. The one who was holding Mon-El's had in the med bay.

'Oh no, it's okay.' She explains and I head closer to where she is standing, 'I haven't introduced myself yet, I'm Imra Ardeen, Mon-El's wife.' She smiles brightly at me but all I can muster is a slight smile so I hold out my hand, 'Kara Danvers.' She only smiles more as she shakes my hand.

'Mon-El told me all about you, I hope I'm not overstepping here but when Mon-El first came to the future, he spent all his time trying to get back to you, he spent years holding onto the necklace you gave him. It took a long time before he even tried to start moving on, he never forgot you, Kara, I really want you to know that.'

Imra must have believed her words would offer me some kind of comfort but they only add to my pain, to know that he never gave up, to know that he was kept sane by my necklace as I was by his jumper only added to my guilt. I spent these last months grieving, believing he was dead not even entertaining the idea that he could have been alive. I didn't even try to find him, I had given up so easily and now that he was back home I wouldn't even let him explain his story.

Imra must sense my pain as she quietly excuses herself and heads back towards the door, I turn back towards the skyline of National City and for a moment I wish I could fly, flying in the past had always cleared my mind from my troubles but now being grounded only suffocated me more.

I stay on the roof for a few hours, watching as the sun moves across the sky. I eventually realize I'm going to have to speak with Mon-El so I head towards the door, I gently pull on the handle but as I do, a fire spreads across my belly, I bite my tongue in pain. I grab onto the handle to keep myself up but it only snaps off and I fall to the floor as the pain continues to burn.

I begin to panic as the pain shows no sign of letting up so I try to grab my phone from my pocket but then I realize I dropped it after Alex's call. I cry out in pain hoping someone will hear me but no one does. Suddenly I feel liquid running down my leg and my stomach drops, I'm only seven months gone. Surely this can't be happening?

'Please someone help me.' I plead as another surge of pain crushes my stomach so much so I can no longer hold back my screams of pain. I thank Rao as I hear distant footsteps running up the stairs, I try to focus my hearing but the pain is too overwhelming. It's not long before I find Winn at my side.

'Kara, Kara whats happened?' his face full of concern,

'Water. Broke' I puff out,

'Okay okay, I'm gonna call Alex.' He panics,

Alex eventually comes rushing to the roof, and along with J'onn they get me down to the med bay but as I lay down on the bed I feel white spots beginning to fill my vision,

'Alex, I really don't feel good, what's happening? Is my baby okay?' I cry,

'Listen, Kara, this baby is in distress, we need to get it out quickly okay? I need to use Kryptonite so you're going to feel worse before it gets better. I've called Mom, she'll be here soon.' Alex tried to reassure me.

I can only nod as I grip my stomach once more, and then suddenly I hear him outside.

'J'onn what is going on? I've just seen Alex carrying Kryptonite. Is Kara hurt?' He pleads to The Martian,

'I'm sorry Mon-El I can't tell you, this is for Kara and Kara only to tell.' I hear J'onn's footsteps grow distant and my attention returns to the people around me.

'Kara, you're going to pass out okay, we're all here, and you and your little one are going to be okay.' I nod,

'Alex, are you sure the Kryptonite isn't going to hurt the baby?' Winn takes my hand and interjects,

'Kara, the baby is half Kryptonian half Daxamite, it could have a little or no adverse reaction at all okay? Either way, we've got everything to make sure it is okay.' I nod, readying myself for the onslaught of the Kryptonite, not noticing the shadow entering the room.

'What did you just say?' I hear him whisper so I look and suddenly I feel a-washed with guilt when I see the look of confusion and pain spread across his face.

He knows.