In Love With My Stranger

confessions

He led me to the living room. .. later came back dressed More casual then went to the kitchen and brought me juice
"Come" I said holding out my hand to him . He held it .
" what's wrong?  Why are you so lost? " I asked looking deep in to his eyes.  He wandered some where between lost and sorry. ..troubled and fine. .he struggled to say something
"No it's nothing I'll take care of it" he lied. I pulled him to me and threw my leg over him such that I was seated on him. I kissed him unbuttoned my shirt then back to the kissing.
But what ever I was doing wasn't really working.  I sat
"You know you can trust me? "I started
He drew me closer to him placed me on the couch and kissed me "and you also know I like you right"
"Like me?...not love?" He said . I didn't reply.
"I'm suggesting you tell me what has gotten you wandering" I said.  He sat up
"Fine I'll tell you after you tell me what happened to your son?...The truth. " he said.
Why did he bring that topic up?
"He succumbed to leukaemia" i said
"You are lying. "He said
I got my shirt
"I've got to work. ... I don't want to talk about it"i said
"Why won't you tell me? " he asked
"What shows I'm lying? " I said
I got up to go...he held my hand.
I felt my eyes tear
"Leave me" I said  unscrewing my hand from his grip... well at least I tried
" not after you tell me" he said
"I can't"  I said before half walking half running to wherever my legs carried me. I felt anger pain and regret building up in n me.i felt so helpless and useless remembering Chris' body in the casket

I heard the door open
"I've been looking for you " he said
"I should have protected him" I said
A thought came to my mind
"Do you know who killed my son?" I said.  He knew he definitely knew . He looked away from my gaze
"How did you know Chris wasn't sick how did you know he was was was--"I gasped in realisation
"Unless it was. ..you"i said
"That's absurd why would I? " he said
"it's you the rich right. ..you meet a girl use her then afraid of her spoiling your marriage and relationship with someone else you start killing them and covering your tracks" I blabbred
"What!" He said "who gave you such a thought? "
"I mean I'm trying to help you and you accuse me of murdering your son" he added
Silence.
"I'm sorry okay?  I messed up I'm sorry" I said again
"I'd better get going"  I stood up
He held my hand
"I'm not letting you go .. Trust me whoever killed Chris is going to pay" he kissed me and gently put my head in his chest where I found solace

Next morning.  I walked over to his office.  His PA stood in my way
"Can I help you? "I said
"What do you think you are doing. ... sleeping around with him going to his place. God knows how many he has entered any way just to be clear back off he's mine and I don't like sharing. " she said
"Oh and just so you know you are not the first being with him always being taken out then at the end of the day sleep with him. .. all of us have experienced that you are just another one of them so don't think too much of it when he tells you you're special. " she said then slapped her hair in my face and walked away.

He pulled me into his office put me on the wall and kissed me again and again and again
He stopped.
"What is wrong? "He asked
"N-nothing"i said
He threw a gaze at me as though waiting for a reply
"Patrice told you something,right? "He said
"Not really just trying to get yesterday out of my system" I said
"I'm not angry with you" he said "neither should you be with yourself"
Silence as I moved out back to my station