In Love With My Stranger

good byes

"Mama please just let me go I'll come back I promise" I heard him say
"But son if you go then who will I  stay with I already lost your brother I might lose you again
"Ma please I just need some air I c
an't be here anymore not in this state I'll go back to the city y and probably move on" he claimed
"Son-" the woman said
I felt an adrenalin rush.  He couldn't not now at this time no
"I can't be here" Clyde said "Hulio is around"
"Then stay I" I heard my lips utter
He shot a glance at me
"If it's me causiy you to leave then stay ,home is where your FAMILY  is and I wouldn't like to end one " I emphasised family and one.
"Stay and I will leave I can't deprive you of your family after all ,can I? I said
"What kind of mother will I be of I separate you and your mom?" I added
He held my hand and shook jis head in disbelief
I came back to my senses and realised I qas still meteta  from him we hadn't even talked
"Then stay " I told him after rethinking  my approach
I took his hand in mine 
"Love don't run love don't hide it won't turn away or back down from a fight I'm right here I'm not going anywhere love too tough it won't give up no mot on us " I said" baby love don't run"
I felt myself smile ... I still loved him that much  I still wanted him
"Honesty sincerity tenderness and Trust a little less time for the rest of the world and more for us kisses in the morning I love yous at night just like it used to be the eay life was when you were still in love with me ... can I get all that back " he replied
I stared deep into his dark eyes slightened  with years
I didn't have what to say
" what's mine is yours  every breath I take every choice I take I might sound crazy all my pain washed away by you even every thing you said ... I can't repeat it all " I said " just don't go I still need you here "
I know we sounded mad supper mad but I was glad we  talked
He leaned over and kissed me moving his hands up against my back we had our tongues tangled one way or another he electrified me those shockd sent me recalling how much I'd missed him his touch his lips God! He was an expert
"Missed you" he said
" I'm not sure you did" I replied jokingly
He cupped my head and kissed me once more and another and the last well maybe the last one
Well we made it one more and my stupid bones interrupted
"We'd better get you in " he said lifting me of my feet to the house
Hello you know what came after darling yeah just him and I in tjat soft goose feather filled mattress under a three lay polo duvet and air pillow.  He collapsed beside me making his previous action seem energy draining he looked relaxed his hands as soft as latex lay still but alive under my nape
"Remember the time you asked me whether I loved you? " I asked
"How can I forget that" he replied
"Well I think you have your answer" I said sitting up. He put his weight on his right elbow and looked at me
"And..." he said . I got up and started padding to the bathroom
"You haven't yet told me the answer" he said

I washed my face and looked at my reflection so much had changed about my life too much had changed

Before first light I got up walked out moved on and moved out to a place I could find myself far away from the drama away from everything away from him
I called sticks she was the only one who could help me