Yes I've changed, I'm not the innocent, naive, and trusting girl I used to be. Instead I come off as a cold-hearted and rude bitch to most. And in a way I am. I put up walls to protect me from emotions, because I was taught emotions make you weak. I am no longer innocent and naive because I've seen and been through some of the worst parts of society. And I trust few because I used to trust everyone and I was stabbed in the back and hurt because I was too trusting too many times. I'm insecure because those who are supposed to love me for who I am non-stop judge me, and compare me to others. I don't bring people to my house anymore because I'm embarrassed of my alcoholic father. I don't hangout with anyone anymore unless I sneak out because I'm not allowed to. BUT if you actually stick around long enough to get past my walls and give me time to actually be able to open up to you and trust you I am actually a kind person with a huge heart. But it takes a while… and most people can't deal with the me they see until I get to the point where I trust them.
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Writings From When Im Emotional
RandomDifferent small writings i have done when i need to vent but don't want to talk to people
