Kaysia

7.

Kaysia ^^
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I heard my alarm go off and groggily rolled myself over to the other side of the bed. With my eyes remained closed, I draped my left arm off the bed and reached around to find my phone. Having found it, I picked it up and opened my eyes for a split second just to turn it off. I felt so drained. It was only 7:30am on Monday morning & yet I already lacked the willingness to move my body. I just wanted to lay here all day, doing nothing but I remembered the pep talk I gave myself at the start of the term. I vowed I would do better this year and make more of an effort to go to my lectures. I was so unfocused during my first year - I just about passed. I'm just lucky the first year doesn't go toward my final grade.

I laid down just thinking about how I managed to get myself out of one situationship and straight into another. It was even worse now because they were quite literally trying to kill each other. After Kane left last night, a million questions and thoughts invaded my mind. Was he using me to get to Dontè? Am I going to end up in the middle of all this? Does he still think i'm involved and is trying to play me? Does he genuinely like me? Questions I couldn't answer but was also scared to seek the answer to. My mind raced across the thought of Dontè and how he would react to finding out me and Kane are now talking like that. Imagine what he would he would do, I thought to myself. I thought back to how he reacted the last time when he thought I was talking to Kane. Although, I had no intentions to see him again, I knew there was no avoiding him. He knew where I lived. What if he turned up here when Kane was here, I thought to myself. What if that is what Kane wants?

I jumped out of bed just as quick as my eyes shot open. I had been laying down as if I didn't have a lecture to attend. I checked the time to see 8am and ran to the bathroom to sort out my hygiene. As soon as I was done I threw on my clothes noticing that it was already 8:30. I don't know how I always get so carried away in the shower. I knew I had to be quick, yet here I am. I quickly threw on my grey north face tracksuit and paired it with my white airforces. I was clearly on some road man vibe today but who was I trying to impress? Noone. I sprayed deodorant and creamed my ankles and my face as that was all I had time for. Well, I didn't even really have time for that but I refused to walk out with ashy ankles. I literally ran for the door grabbing my phone, keys and AirPods on the way.

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For someone who left there house at 8:40, I got here pretty quickly . It was only 8:55, which means I could have probably creamed my whole body. I inwardly chuckled at myself for always folding under pressure. I always panicked at the thought of not accomplishing things in a timely manner. As I quickly rushed around the building trying to get to my lecture hall in the now 4 minutes I had to reach the top floor, I saw T1 walking towards me and waving his hands. I rolled my eyes and tried to walk around him but he pulled me by arm - pulling me closer to him.

Me: "Are you okay? Don't think you can put your hands on me like that. We ain't friends". I said now pausing my music.

T1: "I don't give a fuck!" He spat. "Ay listen though? where's your man at?" He was smirking.

Me: "And your referring to who?" I said pushing up my face at him. He could never be talking about Dontè.

T1: "You know who I mean". He stated simply with his face still full of amusement.

Me: "If you mean Dontè then I don't know why you would think I know that. Aren't you the one who lives with him?" I questioned sarcastically.

T1: "He ain't been home in like 2 days". He said matter of factly.

Me: "Okay...go check with Jayde then". I said rolling my eyes.