Letters for Bang Yedam

twenty

Rin

I opened my eyes only to see the white sorroundings .

I position myself and saw my mother sleeping while holding my hand.

I looked up in the window, outside. It's already dark.

I slowly pull my hand out from mother's and placed it in my face.

I sob. Then after a while sobs turned into a cry.

I so sad? Happy? Betrayed? I cannot name the emotion.

I already remember.... all

I already recoverd.

I already gained my memories back!

And, I don't know what to feel!

Happy? Because, I already meet my treasures and happy living with them

Sad? Bacause I forgot Yedam.

Guilt? Because of I forgot Yedam.

Betrayed?

I really don't know.

But, I'm really don't know what to do first after I remember all.

I still recall Yedam's letter to me and How I remember it all and how sadness and guilt I feel.

"Sweetie?" Mom called.

"Mom!" I hugged her.

"Shh.. it's okay. It's okay.. I'm here.." she said while patting my back and caressing my head.

"I already remember all mom and I don't know what to feel.." I confessed.

"Shh .. I told you it's okay... I'm here for you.." She said.

I pulled out after a hard cry.

"Mom? Can I have a paper and a pen?" I asked.

"Sure.." she said as she get something in her bag and gave me the paper and the pen.

"I'm gonna go call the doctor or a nurse to check and also food to eat." She said.

"Okay, Mom. Take care"

As soon as Mom left, I wrote a letter to Bang Yedam.