Love Is Pain

Experiencing

It had been two weeks since Key had been to church and I was really beginning to worry about her where abouts. I wanted to figure out what was going on with her but I had no clue how.
Grandma: baby come help with the offering names.
Me: okay here I come grandma
While helping my grandma with names I had just so happened to come across a very familiar name "Keyana Moons". Could this be her ? Or was it just a coincident ?
Me: grandma what day are these name from ?
Grandma: I think it was about 2 Sundays ago. Why what's wrong ?
Me: oh no I was just asking
Jackpot! I found her. I repeated her name in my head as I hurriedly finishes helping my grandma and ran into the room for my computer. I signed into Facebook and typed in her name exactly the way she spelled it and she popped up. Without thinking cautiously I added her as a friend and wanted to take it back immediately.
Days had passed and my phone rung with a notification from Facebook, I logged on and seen " Keyana Moons accepted your friend request" I screamed happily all around my room and simply sent "th@nks 4 d@ @dd" back. Smh I knew she would think I was a kid writing like that but when she replied "no problem ma" I got excited and all my worries were no more.
Later on that day I decided to go on a "TeamLesbian" search. I added sooo many people across the world and I actually liked what I found! That's when I finally stumbled over this very attractive girl... She was a "stud" and she lived about an hour away from me. I added her and wrote "Hey cutie". (remember I was new to this trying to experiment on talking to girls). I was very impatience waiting on her to respond so I continued my search as I waited.
Finally I got a notification and messages I took a breather and checked them.
AC: lol hi
Me: I know you don't know me but i would really like to change that
AC: Maybe... what's your number so I can text you ?
When reading that my heart hit sky rocket I didn't know what to say but I asked the most important question ever .
Me: wait... Do you have a girlfriend?
It took a min to respond so I kinda figure the answer out but I didn't give up hope ... I just knew she was going to be mine and that was my word! Finally my screen lit up with a message.
AC: yeah but it's kind of complicated . We have to break up but we can talk and be friends till then just give me your number and I will text you.
Me: oh okay . I understand and my number is 782-917-9918 .
After that she didn't write back and I waited days for a text from her.
*Phone Rings*
Me: Hello?
Miya: Bitch! I'm about to go off.
Me: why?
As she was explaining what happened I was trying to figure out if I should tell her about me liking girls or just wait till I fully figured myself out... I'll just wait
Miya: Bitch?!?!
Me: huh ?
Miya: I said do you wanna come over Friday?
Me: oh yeah ... I'll get dropped off after school
Miya: alr . Ttyl
When I hung up the phone I instantly texted Porsh "coming over Friday we need to talk . Explain more when I get there". Once the message sent I grabbed my belongings to shower . While stepping in I received a text, thinking that it was Porsh I decided to ignore it.