Dean's Dreams.
Dean and Sam were in a crappy motel without a case and both were getting a little bored. Dean was busy with ignoring Sam because a few days ago he adopted a dog without permission and Dean was still pissed about that.
“come on, pay attention to mee! I'm booredd!” Sam said. “PLEASE SHUT THE FUDGE UP SAM!” Dean yelled and walked out of the motel room. He got into the Impala and drove off.
“Cas, could you get your ass down here, I need to talk to you” he said, hoping he could tell Cas what he wanted to tell for such long time already. He has always been too afraid until now.
Suddenly, Cas was next to Dean. Dean jumped and almost crashed the Impala into an upcoming truck, but managed to move aside just in time.
“Damn it Cas! You almost killed us!” Dean yelled. “I can't die from a car crash, Dean. Anyway, I am sorry Dean. You wanted to talk to me?” Cas said calmly. “Yes, I wanted to talk to you Cas.” Dean said.
He drove the car to the side of the road. “I've gotta tell you something, Cas.” Dean said , still doubting whether to tell him or not. “I'm all ears” Cas said smiling. Dean looked at Cas for a while and decided he still wasn't ready to tell him yet.
“I really want to know what it is like to be an angel. I mean, what's it like? Is it nice to fly and all?” Dean asked. He didn't know what to say instead of the truth, and this was the first thing that came up in his head.
Cas' smile faded because he knew that wasn't the real thing Dean wanted to say. “It's nice, Dean. But it's hard, especially when you have never been to earth. You don't know what the earth is like, and you don't know what humans are like. You have to trust your Father is real without ever seeing him. I know he is from inside, even if I never seen him or had prove he is real. There are angels who started to disbelieve. They killed themselves, they couldn't handle the thought of all that. But that isn't really what you wanted to say was it?” Cas answered.
Dean looked at Cas, ashamed he forgot Cas was a mind reader. “Cas, you promised not to read our minds” Dean said silently. “I didn't. Your face said it all. It was full of doubt and you are amazingly bad at lying when you are nervous.” Cas defended himself. “I don't know if you understand if I tell you. Maybe you'd do something you would regret, I would not be able to live with myself if something like that would happen.” Dean said, hoping not to sound to desperate. He really wanted to tell Cas, but he just couldn't. There was a way to big risk at it.
“please, Dean I really want to know!” Cas almost started crying. Dean didn't trust him. He didn't trust Cas with his thoughts and secrets. “Please…”
Dean didn't know what to do. Should he tell Cas? He didn't know how to say it, he just did. “I… I think…” Dean started.
“Yes, Dean. What do you think?” Cas asked, his smile slowly coming back. “I think Sammy is dating the Devil” Dean said. “Is that good or bad?” Cas asked. Dean looked at Cas in disbelieve.
“OFCOURSE THAT'S FUDGING BAD! HE IS THE FUDGING DEVIL!!” He yelled. “I am sorry Dean, I am just very happy and I want to tell you something as well.” Cas said. “ I have been thinking a lot lately. And I finally figured it out. I think I love you Dean” Cas explained. Dean once again looked at Cas in disbelieve and studied his face if he was joking around or not. He wasn't.
“Dean? Dean, please say something. Anything. Don’t be mad please?” Cas asked. Dean slowly came closer and closer until their noses almost touched.
Cas closed his eyes, expecting a punch in the face. “That might work out just perfect, because think I feel the same way about you” Dean said and slammed his lips onto Cas' lips. Cas was shocked for a while and couldn't move. He kissed back and suddenly everything became black.
Dean woke up in the motel room and Sam and Lucifer were standing next to his bed holding hands.
“Dean, why were you kissing the air?” Sam asked with concern in his voice. Dean looked at Sam. A tear slipped down his cheek.
Cas had lost his grace a few years ago and had passed away a year after that. Dean was dreaming of their first kiss. Sam leaned over and hugged him. Dean started crying and Lucifer had already left, knowing it wouldn't be a good idea to stay very much longer.
