the remedy for a broken heart (why am I so in love)

navarre

somehow i always put myself in these situations

it's like i know how it'll end but i can't help but give into the temptations

i've been hurt before

it's not anything new

this time is different though because there's nobody to answer for

all the pain that's found its way inside without cue

i didn't think she'd be like the rest of them

she was something new

different

exciting

all the sudden i found myself writing

i hadn't done shit like that in a long time

spittin' out rhyme after rhyme

it was insane

she made me feel so good i couldn't even complain

i thought she felt the same

i didn't think she'd have me playing her game

after a while

we decided it was for the best

everything went quiet

it was hard when all the assumptions were "you just wanted her undressed"

people were just asking for me to get violent

time went on though

eventually things got better when i started to let go

just my luck that she'd decide to change her mind as soon as the door was locked

i didn't think she'd convince me till that knock

it was quick

spur of the moment

completely unplanned

but holy shit was her wish my command

i would've given anything for more time

the drive seemed to go too quickly

and there she was

just standing in the road

my headlights shining brightly on her figure

i couldn't believe i was actually seeing her again

my hands were sweating

the nicotine making a home in my lungs

my stomach twisting into knots that only she could undo

everything disappeared as soon as she spoke

it was like the world was at peace as we slipped into casual conversation

there was no uncomfortable air between us

our arms bumped against each other as we trekked to the house

i would have never guessed how bad things would turn out

her words were like bitter honey

i wanted to believe them so badly

and i did believe them somewhere inside of me

but deep down there was the doubt that has always been rooted inside of me

i ignored it

it was so easy to ignore

but with each second i spent with her it was harder and harder to ignore the fact

that i was beginning to fall in love

i had to bite my tongue too many times to count

all the times that "i love you" could have slipped out is unimaginable

i still shake my head at how utterly stupid i was

we had one night.

one single night together that seemed like heaven to me

and i guess was hell to her when she woke up in the morning

i left with a smile on my face

hers mirroring mine

i should have known when i didn't see her in the rearview mirror that

it wasn't going to be the same

radio silence came after.

it hurt

but what's new

it still hurts

but that's just the way life goes

i hope she knows how wrong she did me

how bad she screwed me over

she doesn't care, and i know she doesn't

but i hope she at least thought about it

but maybe she didn't

and i never meant as much to her as i thought i did