Better Off Without Me

Chapter 9: No hope left

After a while, all of Mortis's friends were in Poco's room. All were crying, hoping, and wishing that Mortis would stay alive. They agreed one of them would stay home to make sure Mortis doesn't die, that person that would stay home is Colt.
On the other hand, everyone else was planning the same plan again. Shelly would stay home to wound Mortis more, or kill him, but they didn't know that Colt was going to stay home tomorrow aswell.
Poco hugged Mortis, crying his eyes out.

"Please stay with us no matter what happens.. I don't want to lose you!" Poco cried.

All of them couldn't stop crying. Everyone was a crying mess.
The next day, everyone, except Shelly and Colt, went to go brawl. Shelly went to the kitchen to make herself breakfeast. Colt stayed with Mortis, he didn't want to leave the room without someone else being there to keep an eye on Mortis.

"I'm not leaving this room until I'm sure you're completely alright. Even though there's a chance you can leave us, I want to make sure that chance doesn't ever happen." Colt said quietly.

His eyes started to fill with tears at the thought of losing Mortis. He hugged Mortis, crying.
Shelly had no idea that Mortis was in Poco's room, so when she went to her room and opened her closet, she noticed he was gone. Shelly got angry that someone kept saving Mortis.

"Why do people keep saving him?! No one cares about him anyway, he's nothing." Shelly thought.

Shelly grabbed her baseball bat and searched for Mortis throughout the house. Colt had locked the door, he was making sure no one was coming in there and hurting Mortis.
Soon, Shelly was at Poco's room, she tried to open the door, but that disn't work.

"Let me in!"

Colt blocked the door with a chair, he grabbed the nearest weapon which was one of Poco's gutairs, he has two.

"You think I'm letting you in here after what you did?!"

Shelly started to break the door down. Colt was ready to fight Shelly, he wasn't going to let Shelly injure, or kill, Mortis. Once Shelly broke the door down, Colt ran at Shelly at swung the gutair at her with full force. The gutair broke. Shelly swung her bat at Colt with full force, he dodged the attack. The two fought.
After what seemed like hours, Colt was able to kick Shelly's weapon out of her hands. They both raced to the baseball bat, but Colt was successful as to grabbing it. He swung it with full force straight at Shelly's face. Shelly fell to the floor unconsious with a broken nose and blood dripping from her mouth. Colt looked at Shelly.

"D-Did I- No, she can't be dead from that." Colt thought.

Colt was beat up, he had bruises on his face, arms, and legs. He had a bloody nose, blood dripping from his mouth, and a black eye. He did manage to dodge most of the attacks. Shelly, on the other hand, had little to no bruises and she didn't look like she was beat up badly. Colt checked to see if Shelly was still alive, she was still alive.
Colt went to Mortis to make sure he was still alive. Mortis was awake, but he seemed dull. Colt ran to Mortis and hugged him. Mortis hugged back. Colt was happy Mortis was awake and that he was alright. On the other hand, Mortis didn't want to be alive.

"Thank goodness you're alive!" Colt said happily.

"Y-Yeah.." Mortis said, he sounded happy about that, but in reality, he wasn't.

An hour later, everyone made their way home. Shelly gained consiousness again. She got up. She felt that her nose was hurting. Shelly then realized it was broken. Colt was spending time with Mortis, he was happy. Mortis pretended to be happy.
After a while, Mortis went to his room, he opened the table side drawer, took the razor, and made his way to the bathroom. Shelly was more worried about her broken nose. Mortis locked the bathroom door. He rolled his sleeves up and started to cut himself, he didn't stop til he heard everyone else come back home. Both his arms were tore up, top to bottom, with cuts. His hands were the only part of his arms that wasn't cut up. Tears filled Mortis's eyes, he looked at himself in the mirror. He saw what he used to be, happy, energetic, and willing to do anything to accomplish his goals. Mortis broke down crying. He rolled his sleeves down and put the razor in his pocket.
Poco, Bull, Piper, Nita, Leon, and Jessie started looking for Mortis. They were happy that he was awake, but they didn't know where he was. Colt also helped to look for Mortis. Everyone else was more concerned with Shelly and her broken nose.
Mortis put his hood up. He stopped crying, but tears still ran down his face.

"If I pretend to be happy, no one but Bull would know that I'm sad and dead inside.." Mortis thought.

Mortis unlocked the door, he wiped the tears off his face. Once he opened the door, he smiled. Poco, Bull, Piper, Nita, Leon, Jessie, and Colt all ran to him and hugged him. Acting as if he was happy, Mortis hugged back. Bull noticed that something was off about Mortis. After everyone was done hugging Mortis, Bull went to his room with Mortis. He closed the door. The smile on Mortis's face was wiped off.

"Mortis, are you alright?" Bull asked.

Mortis didn't say anything. He kind of hugged himself and looked down at his arms.

"It's fine if you don't want to tell me, I just want to make sure you're ok." Bull said as he hugged Mortis.

Hugging back, Mortis started crying.

"I-I.. I-I-"

"I- It's-"

Mortis broke down crying, he couldn't even finish a sentence. Bull knew something wasn't right with Mortis.

"I-I d-didn't want to l-live! I-I wanted t-to die.." Mortis cried out.

Bull was shocked, he hugged Mortis tighter. He started to cry.

"You do know that you're our everything, right?"

Mortis looked up at Bull.

"You're our everything.. If we lose you, we wouldn't know what to do."

Mortis hugged Bull tighter. Both of them cried their eyes out.

"I want to go back! I want to be happy again!" Mortis cried.

"I don't want to be this way anymore!"

"I don't want to starve myself anymore! I don't want to cut myself! I just want to be happy! I don't want to cry myself to sleep most of the time! I don't want to hear voices anymore! I just want to feel joy again! I want to go back to the way I used to be!"

"Instead I, I have to deal with all of this! I don't want to! I didn't chose for everyone to hate me! I didn't chose this fate! I don't have faith in me anymore.."

"I don't have any kick left in me.. I just want to give up so that way I don't deal with all this.."

Awe yes, I have cried my eyes out making this chapter ;w; listening to depressing music make this 500× sadder than what it needs to be