• The next morning •
Every morning i wake up from the same dream of me singing in front of thousands, maybe even millions of people. It scares me, the thought i mean.
I began taking singing lessons from a young age and it stuck, i couldn't help but enjoy the sound as the words roll of my tongue so perfectly. The feeling i have when i'm dancing like no ones watching, gives me hope.
I shut my eyes for a couple of moments, wondering, when we all fall asleep, where do we go?
Were the people i was singing for really there, in an alternative universe? Is it all just a shambles? Are we dreaming about things that will never become a reality?
I guess we will never know.
"Billie, are you awake? Dad's ready when you are" my mom muttered quietly, making sure not to wake up my brother. Finneas.
"Yes mom i'll be down in a second" I called out loud enough for her too hear. I hear a light tap on the door and her footsteps become distant.
Today was the day i record the video to Ocean Eyes but it was in front of a lot of people. I was nervous. It was a couple of months ago when my choreo teacher caught me singing that in the bathroom while getting changed and she confronted me, asking if i made a demo of the song can they use it and i perform it. Her words were.
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As i got finished getting ready and the words coming out of my mouth were coming to an end, i heard clapping from behind me causing me to jump back and drop my deodorant on the floor.
"Fuck Cora, you scared the shit out of me" I placed my hand on my heart and my palpitations started to kick in.
"Sorry Billie; Your voice is just absolutely powerful, I've never heard such like it, the world needs to hear it, i can hear the hurt and meaning from your vocals, you have to sing it for next terms performance! Please!" she rushed over to my side and placed her hands together, kinda like a dog begging for a bone.
"I've only ever performed solo, never in the room with the others, i don't think you understand i can't face other students"
"It's such a shame you're such a shy girl Billie, you have so much potential. How about this...i know you've always wanted to be a singer, if you do this for me and the team, i will set you up with some of the guys who work at my boyfriends studio, who will a hundred percent get you into the music industry? and if it makes you even more uncomfortable, you can go anonymous, you can wear a mask while performing and the only people who will know it's you are me, the girls and Austin"
My eyes widened, shock took over my body at the offer. From me singing in the bathroom to me potentially going in to the music industry.
"I don't know Cora, the sound of performing in front of hundreds of people scares me, it really does. That would be a dream come true honestly but i'd have to give it some thought, talk to mom and dad, see what they think, this is so sudden"
It really would be a dream come true, but my insecurities weren't going to let me have my moment of shine.
What if no one likes my music? What if they don't like me when i reveal the real me? Why can't i just have the confidence and face the music? literally.
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So today's the day, i've been non stop practicing with Austin and the girls for the past two weeks, now today, i have to perform Ocean Eyes in front of just over six thousand people.
A doll mask was made to cover my face.
I placed on the outfit, Cora made for me to wear for the dance, grabbed my bag and then headed out the door.
