Torn In Between Two Loves

Epilogue

People always say that falling in Love can be the most wonderful feeling in the world, but to me falling in love only causes pain and heartache. I can't believe it two years ago he told me he didn't want a serious relationship, he said he needed to fix his problems before he could commit to someone and I believed him so I let him go even though I loved him with all my heart.

Flashback

"Amanda are you going out with William today" my friend Lainey asked and I smiled goofily at her "Yup he is coming to pick me up around seven so get your little behind up and help me choose an outfit for tonight" I said and she got up from the bed and walked to my closet "Let's see this black dress is really beautiful Mandy why don't you wear this tonight, then you can always put on this red blazer on and wear some cute high heels" she said pulling out my little black dress that I had not wore in a long time "I can always try it on but I doubt it will fit me anymore,

I have gain some weight" I said holding up the dress, it looked too small now I knew I wasn't going to fit in it "Come on Mandy just put it on let me see" my bestie said and I laughed "Okay Okay I'm going just hold your horses down" I told her in between laughter, "You know I have been a little worried William has been acting kind of distant lately, I don't know what's wrong it's like he just doesn't love me anymore and I'm afraid he might break up with me tonight because God knows I love him with all my heart" I said and Lainey raised her eyebrows in confusion "What do you mean? Amanda not to be mean or anything but I doubt William would want to break up with you the boy is head over heels over you" she said and I feigned a smile "I don't know something in my heart tells me that he doesn't love me,

He doesn't even call me anymore like he used to before, we haven't even had a date in two months, at church he doesn't even sits next to me anymore and when I have tried to talk to him he evades me completely, to tell you the truth I think he is going to end our relationship tonight and it hurts me deeply but if it's for the best I have no choice but to accept it" I said and she let out a deep sigh "Don't worry Mandy I'm sure he has been busy everything will be okay you'll see" she said rubbing my back with her hand, I smiled at her and we kept on digging in the closet hoping to find the perfect outfit.

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7:00 p.m.

It was seven and I was waiting impatiently for him, I was walking in circles around the room, he was always on time I was about to sit down when there was a knock on the door and I immediately went to answer "Hey I'm sorry to bother you but I was wondering if I could speak to Amanda" a boy around 15 years old said to me "Who are you and why would you want to speak to her?" I asked him getting a little aggravated, he just looked at me and I could see he was starting to get nervous "Well you see I'm a friend of William and he has asked me to give her this and tell her he will be not making it tonight" he said showing me a white envelope with my name printed on it "Ahh I see well in that case just give it to me" I told him but he took a step back "No I have to give it personally to Amanda, if she is not in I'll comeback tomorrow" he said and I laughed "Well today seems to be your lucky day because you are looking at her" I told him and he smiled "Are you sure you are Amanda because William would never leave such a pretty girl...never mind" he said and scratched the back of his neck I took a step closer to him "You know what just give me the letter and go" I said stretching my hand out, he placed the envelope in my hand "I'm sorry" he said looking at me with pity, and quickly turned around and walked away. I went inside my house and I opened the envelope, inside it was a folded sheet of paper and some pictures we had taken one day when he took me to the movies for the first time

Amanda:

It hurts me deeply to tell you this through this letter but I just didn't have the courage to do it in person. I have some many problems at home and school and I have decided to go live with my father in Orlando, Florida. I won't come back anymore and so I have decided to let you go, I can't be involved in a serious relationship right now I have to fix my life before I can love you like you deserve. Please forgive me and move on with your life.

William Bustamante

Tears were falling from my eyes, my heart was breaking into pieces, how could he do that to me, I loved him and he didn't love me back, my life had no meaning anymore he wasn't just my boyfriend he was my best friend my confidant, how was I going to live without him? So many questions and no answers. That night I went to my room and I washed my face and removed the little make up I had put on, I brushed my hair and took off my dress and put my pjs on, I had tried my best to look good for him but he was just a coward who couldn't even tell me to my face he didn't want me anymore.

End of flashback

After that night I spend most of my days focusing on school work and after school activities, my friends and family were always there to help me cheer up and little by little I learned to cope with the fact that I had to move on with my life and soon I started to forget him not completely but I was almost there until today I don't even know what I'm doing here sitting down at this expensive restaurant I must be crazy he called me yesterday and said he needed to talk to me how he got my number that's something I don't know but I'll find out soon, all I want is to close that hurtful chapter of my past and be happy once and for all with my boyfriend Gilbert. He and I have been together for five months now, even though we knew each other longer than that but I was always attracted to him and he felt the same about me, He makes me happy and treats me like a queen I couldn't have asked for a better boyfriend than him. Well it's past eight o'clock and William is not here yet I look around the restaurant, I'm getting a little irritated my but hurts because I have been sitting down here long enough but I guess waiting another couple of minutes won't kill me.....