Torn In Between Two Loves

Chapter 2: The Confrontation

Torn in between two loves

Chapter 2: The confrontation

I finally pull myself away from William breaking our embrace, I look up at him and there is so much sadness in his eyes, I could see this clearly even though he is trying to smile "I'm sorry Amanda I just don't know what to do I'm dying here I want to just take you in my arms and never let you go" he says and I fidget a little "Look William I'm engaged I love my boyfriend more than anything in this world, and I'm not going to jeopardize my relationship just because you had a change of heart all of the sudden, that's not how life works, what we had ended up two years ago, yes it was beautiful while it lasted but it ended very painfully for me but I finally moved on and I want you to do the same, all I can offer you is my friendship and I don't know if you will be okay with it otherwise we can't see each other no more" he takes a step closer and leans down to look at me since he is a little bit taller, I can feel his breath on the tip of my nose "You probably didn't hear me right or maybe I'm not explaining my self clearly, Amanda I'm going to fight for you, I don't care how much you say you love your fiancé I know that you still love me I can feel it, your kiss spoke more than words could ever do, you still have the same reaction to my touch, I don't care how long I have to wait for you to realize it, I know you will be mine again sooner or later" he says and I turn around ready to walk away and leave but he grabs my wrists and turns me back around to face him "Why are you trying to run away, are you scared because you know what I said is true? Are you afraid to face the truth Mandy?" I snatch my hand back and I point my finger at him poking his chest with force "You know what I want? I want you to stay the heck away from me, I don't have any feelings for you they died the day you left me and ran away to be in

the arms of another girl, you broke up with me through a freaking letter for God's sake, without any explanation so I think it's only fair that you keep your distance from me, I love Gilbert and nothing and no one will change what I feel as for you I don't have anything but best wishes and I truly hope you can fix your life and try to find happiness with someone else, Good bye William" I say and I turned around and practically run in the parking lot making my way towards my car, I start the engine on and I drive off, I turn on the radio and the song by Paloma Faith is playing

🎶I tell myself it don't mean a thing,

And what we got, got no hold on me

But when you're not there,

I just crumble.

I tell myself I don't care that much,

But I feel like I'd die till I feel your touch.

Only love

Only love can hurt like this

Only love can hurt like this

Must have been a deadly kiss

Only love can hurt like this.

Said I wouldn't care if you walked away,

But everytime you're there, I'm begging you to stay

And when you come close, I just tremble.

And everytime, everytime you go

It's like a knife that cuts right to my soul.🎶

Tears fall from my eyes and I can't see clearly so I pull to the side and turn the car off, I lean on the steering wheel and I cry a little harder, I didn't know why I was feeling this way I thought I was over him, why did he have to kiss me? I wasn't sure of what I was feeling anymore, that kiss had woken up feelings inside of me that I thought had died two years ago, my phone beeps and I pick it up and look at the screen its a message from William "Amanda are you okay? I'm sorry for causing you distress please forgive me, I know you are crying I can see you, I'm right behind you" I look through my rearview mirror and I see a grey Volvo parked behind me, "Why can't he just leave me alone" I whisper and suddenly a knock on the window makes me jump "Mandy open the door come on please I just want to talk to you I promise" he says and I open the door for him, he notices my teary face and he wipes off the tears on my cheek with his thumb "Mandy please don't cry I promise that I will not bother you anymore, it hurts me to see you like this" there is so much pain in his eyes that I without thinking cup his face with my hands and I pull him towards me, all I want to do at that moment is take our pain away and without thinking it further I kiss him, the kiss is sweet at first but I can't get enough of him I want to feel every single muscle of his body on mine I want the taste of his lips to linger on mine for a long time, he seems to want the same because he slides his tongue inside my mouth and we deepen the kiss holding onto each other tighter "I love you Mandy you don't know how long I have dream to have you like this in my arms" he says and I smile against his lips "I....I need to go William I'm sorry I shouldn't have kissed you" I say pulling away from him "That's fine don't worry about it I think we both were craving for that kiss, just think about it for me Mandy, please give me another chance, at least let me fight to earn your love one more time I promise you won't regret it" he says and I smile at him "Okay I'll think about it I have to talk to Gilbert first but just give me a couple of days I'm not really sure about what I want right now I'm so confused, I don't guarantee you anything" I say and he smiles a little, God he is so handsome, I sit up straight and he closes my door I turned the engine on and he moves to the side "Good night William" I wave my hand at him and he just stands there for a minute looking at me "Good night Mandy" he says after a minute and then turns around and walks to his car as soon as I see his safe inside his car I take off, I can't believe I just did such a thing I kissed my freaking ex-boyfriend and I'm engaged to another I feel like such a slut, oh why do this had to happen to me specially now that I'm so happy, I love Gilbert with all my heart but then why did I let William kiss me and what's worst I kiss him too, I have to sit down and meditate for a minute, I look at the time it's past eleven I clock at night Gilbert must be asleep, so I decide not to call him I don't want to wake him up he has to work early tomorrow. I finally get home safe and sound and I open the door and walk upstairs carefully and slowly I don't want to wake my mother up but before I can take another step the lights come on and sitting right there in my couch is no other than my boyfriend Gilbert, I look at him and he stares back at me, the expression on his face tells me that I'm in deep trouble so I slowly walk down the stairs towards him "Would you care to explain why are you getting home so late?" He says with a serious expression on his face "Gilbert I..." I try to talk but no words are coming out I want to tell him the truth but I just cannot I have so much on my mind to deal with it in one day, he stands up and walks to me closing the space between us he places his hands on my shoulders and starts leaning in for a kiss but I put my hand on his chest and I pull him back stopping him "Gilbert don't please sit down we need to talk" I say ready to tell him everything that happened tonight I just hope he can understand and won't walk out on me that's something that will kill me.

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Authors Note:

I want to thank everyone for their great support to all my stories specially to those of you who have sent me messages telling me how good my stories are, I'm not a professional writer everything I write comes from my imagination, this story is based on my own experience yes William is real I just changed the outcome of the story but that's something I will tell you at the end, but your opinion is what matters the most, when I get messages like that I know that at least I'm doing a good job and that really touches my heart, thank you so much for your support.

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