All The Things I Couldnt Tell You°•° Y.m

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I love you

I know we've told each other these three words, and I meant it every time of course.

But now I realised the extent that I do love you.

I guess its true that you don't realise how much you have until it's gone.

Watching how you left was the worst and I'd do anything to take it back.

It's been haunting me, my dreams and when I'm not in sleep, it's there in every waking hour.

I see the traumatic events play before each and every time I allow my eyelids to shutter close.

I haven't eaten since it happened nor drank, not even a simple glass of water to sustain my thirst.

I remember so vividly that night, I had gotten fired from work and was upset- i took it out on you.

A small argument blossomed like a field of cherry trees, each small flower withholding a secret.

I yelled, you yelled and then walked out saying you'd come home when I cooled off.

My regret flourished after you stepped through the door frame.

And it hit worse with each passing second.

I don't know who was in more pain at the moment.

Me or you.

Because it squeezed my insides and lurched through my heart, I tried to choke out a warning, I really did.

But nothing came out of my throat but a deafening silence.

A deafening silence that was shattered in the broad light of the moon.

Shattered by the sound of car horn honking.

Shattered by the sound of tires screeching to a horrific hault.

Shattered by the sound of metal and meat colliding.

Shattered much like my heart did.

I was so stupid to let you walk out like that, I couldn't move and I swear I tried.

It felt as if I was glued to the ground only to watch what hell suffocated you like a movie.

I'm sorry and I always will be.

I love you Jimin and I always will.

But I can't help but wonder if you still love me?