The Truth Untold ( TXT Soobin)

25. destroyed

"your Love was fake, but the pain it caused was very real"

25

I slowly opened my eyes and the first person I saw was Soobin... He was sitting in a chair next to the bed...
He was looking at me not saying anything...
And even though I had thousands of questions I couldn't ask any...
I was tired
Tired of thinking
Tired of worrying
Tired of lies
Guess I'm giving up...
They said that I'm dead then why?
Why my heart hurts like this?!
How this is even possible
End with that thoughts my eyes got teary...
I knew I was going to end up crying if I was going to continue looking at him...
Even though I didn't care about it anymore I turned back to another side, trying to avoid Soobin's gaze

-Mila..-After a long silence, Soobin mumbled my name, but I ignored him...

-Mila are you okay?- Still, I continue to ignore him, not because I was angry, sure I was but at that moment, I didn't have enough power to answer him

-Mila- he mumbled and slowly, touched my arm.

I know that I should get up and run away from him... But as a said I couldn't... I couldn't even move... I couldn't even open my mouth to ask him...

-Mila say something -he said-Okay I understand, get some rest. We can talk about this later-he added after not hearing any respond

Talks about what? I wanted to ask, How you broke me? How you didn't love me? How you Lied? How you gave me hopes? How you made me so weak? -I had thousands of questions but I couldn't ask

Then I realized...
It is not because I'm tired...
It is because - I'm afraid
I'm afraid to hear everything from him
I'm afraid to know about his lies
His sins
I'm afraid to face the truth...

I never loved you-I was Afraid to hear this.

And that moment I was more angry about myself then Soobin.
How pathetic can I be?!
Even though he lied about everything... I'm still running away from the truth
Even though it is obvious I still don't want to hear this from him.

It may sound unreal and maybe it is but... I could feel how my heart slowly was breaking apart
End every second of it was unbelievably painful.

I let you in... but you completely destroyed me

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Hi everyone,  this chapter is really short, but again I have midterms So I don't really have time to write. I feel sorry for that.
But my midterms will be over this week then I can update properly ❤️