The Truth Untold ( TXT Soobin)

27.Care

"When you don't want to care about someone, but you still do, that's the Love."

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Soobin's POV

"-why do I even care... Goodbye Soobin. I hope I'm not going to see you again"

why do I feel bad? why do I even care? why not seeing her anymore scares me?

why I feel broke? I never felt like this... since I found out about my sins

the door opened but I didn't bothered to look who it was. Actually I didn't care anymore... I never felt so empty

-Soobin -I've heard Yeonjun's voice behind me. I wanted to look back but I was tired... I couldn't even explain what I felt
-Soobin Are you okay?-he asked and sat in front of me
-I'm Tired -I mumbled Slowly
-I took Mila... She asked me some questions about you
-what?-I asked immediately
-he wanted to know about your past... Soobin you should tell her
-why? She will hate me more-I said without thinking

Only then I realized
I cared... I cared a lot about her... I cared what she feels
And the worst thing was that
I don't want her to hate me.

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Mila's POV

"he insists that he doesn't deserve to be loved, to be cared... He is doing everything to make people hate him...he isn't doing anything to hurt others Like this he is hurting himself more."
I couldn't get over with what Yeonjun said to me. What he has done? Why he hates himself that much? I had thousands of questions about Soobin... But why do I even care? Why I still care for him? Why I don't hate him?!

I Love him

But why? I couldn't understand, I know that I should hate him... But I can't no matter how hard I try to stop thinking about him I can't do it.
Instead, I hate myself for being so weak and pathetic

But does it really matters? I'm dead so nothing really matters...

What should I do now? Stay like this forever, do I even have a choice? What have I done to deserve all of this?!

Days were passing... I haven't left the house a whole week...
I haven't seen or talked to anyone...
All I did was sitting here and thinking

Knock on the door disturbed me from thinking. I got up and went downstairs to see who it was

When I opened the door I was taken by surprise when I saw Soobin

-What...what Are you doing here?-I said in amazement
-I... I asked everyone and they said that they haven't seen you for a whole
-and? Why does it matter?
-I thought that something happened to you
-I'm dead Soobin... What else can happen to me?-I asked
-I know but... It just I wanted to know if you are okay
-even though don't understand why do you care I'll tell you... No, I'm not okay... How you expect me to be okay after what happened?! You're having fun, don't you? You are enjoying to see me like this?-I said and faked a smile to control my tears
-I don't... It just... just
-Just what Soobin?!
-I just care....-he mumbled and tried to avoid my eyes
-care for what
-For you-he said enough to be heard
-I can't believe you. Don't you had enough of this? -I said in anger and was about to lock the door when he said

-I made Yeonjun kill himself