Diary with an audience

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lol just thoughts - it is a diary thing after all yeet
(sorry i'll never say yeet again lol)

okay so since it's exam time lads (omg yay) its kinda expected where i live and go to school that you spend this easter break (that i'm on now) studying everyday and eventually getting all A's and B's i'm your exams.

now don't get me wrong, i am literally one of the biggest procrastinators you'll ever meet, and generally so disorganised (also a bit academically thiq lol). honestly tho recently i've been trying so hard to get my life together, and for the most part, for some unknown reason it's been working.
for the most part.

ugh like at the start of easter i was studying like everyday, a decent amount tbf but like now, i just feel like all the work i do is literally doing nothing and that i'm just gonna fail everything anyway, and i legit have such anxiety surrounding these exams.

i know it probably doesn't sound like a big deal, and they probably aren't really, but i just want those fucking grades and it's so hard, questioning if it's even possible or if i'm just too thick to ever be able to do it now.

idk

also i legit need extra time but my teachers are like going to do everything they can to stop me having it and it would honestly help so much because that's one of the main causes of this anxiety surrounding school like the fact that i've never finished a history or english or art exam because i run out of time every single time.

i stg if i don't get an A in art i'll legit jump off a bridge fr oml the hours and fucking hours i've put in to that damn subject

this has been a rant but i'm glad i've got that off my chest
not gonna apologise cos this is meant to be a 'diary with an audience' so fuck the rules bitches
i'll say what i damn well want
and this is what's been happening in my life ur welcome doods

goodnight.