~ALexias pov~
BEEP BEEP BEEP
i slamed my hand down th ealarm clock i groaned and rolled over that was a mistake *thump*
"fuck"
i heard my door open
"u alright hun"
came a sweet voice my mum my saviour she was the only one that i talked to even then i hardley did i became mute two days after he left.
"just saying hi to fred" i said silently
"okay hun go get ready"
she closed the door softley i got up and went to the shower and started soapin i though ever since he left my life just fell to pieces sam didnt start bullying he did worse he beated me everyday oneday i left the girls toilet and he draged me to the closet and raped me i shiverd remebering that then i thought about him his smile his attitude i shook my head no alexia you cant think of that he left you he promised he would come back for you before the year ended its been two fucking years tears sprung to my eyes of lost everything the only thing left was my mum my dad left a year ago and mum remarried to a jerk who beated me of course he didnt want her finding out so it was a secret i let tears cascade down my face i turned the shower off and wraped a towel around me i reached into the last draw and pulled out a li,l black box i opend it and pulled out the razer blade ever since he left i changed i was someone diffrent i was the excat oppiste of what i was i pressed it against my skin and ran hard across my wrist i did this five times i washed my wounds and put the razor back i went and got dressed i ended up wearing this [polyvore] i sighed and left for school after i starightend and teased my hair along with doing my make up.
~~~~~~at lunch~~~~
i was happy to day sam wasnt here and i could relax peacfully i sat with my only friend sarah she saw me coming and smiled i smiled back
"we are clubbing friday night wich is tommorow no if's or but's you need a night out and tommorow were also ditching to buy some shit for the club got it" sarah said i a mata-o-factly voice
i nodded my head gutta love sarah once she made her mind up no point in trying to change it i scribled down in a note book
Nice to see you to sarah
she laughed and i smiled at her and we ate our lunch well i guess i get to have dome fun in this dull sad hurtful life im looking forward to it.
~~~~~~~~after school~~~~~~~
i walked home infact i kind of skipped cause i didnt get beatin i decided to go through the park i didnt have my ipod with me and i was happy till i heard that voice
"someone looks oh so happy today"
i ignored him and continued to skip the park lead straight to my house it was a short cut i never took cause of the ppl i was afraid to run into then i heard him again but i ignored him he wouldnt do anything while we where in public right
"oh alexis hunny i missed u today we need to catch up" he said
he really did creap me out i could feel him gaing on me and with out thought i bolted for it to my house i heard him running after me i saw my house not far now if only i could make it i could hear he was gaining and fas ti pushed my slef even futher and i saw the fence coming up fast i took a deep breath come on alexia u can jump the fence u and axel use to do it all the time right i gutta do it and with that i leaped up put my hand on the fence and flew over the fence landing perfectley with out a problme in a world i heard swearing.
"youll regret this alexia tommorow youll fucking regret running from me" he threatend me
i hid a giggle that stpuid idiot im not going to school tomorrow hehe i walked inside and went straight to my room to have a shower cause that running made me sweat and i hate being sweaty
~~~~~skipping to next day~~~~~~
i woke up early excited i giggled and got ready for the day .
i walked downstairs with my bag grabed some toast and left kissing my mum on the cheek i meet sarah out side of school we headed off to the mall we went to every shop looking for the right outfit we brought some extra clothes but by 3:00 pm we found the perfect outfit for the club we went back to my house later in the avo we went to her house to get ready so she could drive us to the clubb so we didnt have to walk back home tonight was going to fun when we were done .
~~~~ at the club~~~
we arrived i was a bit nervouse
"you ready gurl" sarah said in a high pitched voice
we entered it was packed i went over to the bar with sarah she orded the strongest drink yeah were both under age but thats why we both have fake ids we got wasted in no time we danced around and had alot of funu i sat down to catch my breath i was smiling this was the best night ever i rested my head on the table dor abit cause it was dizzy when some tappe dme on the shoulder i looked up to see a really cute guy
"may i have a dance with you" he asked
i nodded and we went to the dance floor we danced till we were exhasted we went over to a empty booth we had danced for hours i just sat down when i was yanked up by sarah
"H-H-E-EEE-YYYY-YY" whe yelled at the same time
we craked up laughing cause we said it at the same time
they guy looked at us weird and left oh well
"we g-g-utt-a-a gg-ooo" she slured
i nodded my head and we stumpled down the streets we were walking long the cool hair hitting our faces the acholle slowley left us seeing has we were walking for a long time we were near my house when ia fire truck zoomed past scarring the shit out of me and sarah we both screamed and calmed down and then another one went past and we screamed again we camled down and head towards my house again we were looking at the ground when we got to my house and when i looked up it was on fire the whole house was on fire then i realized mum dad were still in there well i really didnt care bout my step dad but my mum on the other hand i burst out crying and tried to run inside but sarah grabed hold of me i screamed out
"NOOOOOOO"
she held me till i stoped struggling then took me back to her place all i could think of was how my loved ones are leaving me therey going is sarah next i started to shake with fear and i was feeling too much pain i wanted it to stop i ran to her bathroom and pulled out my raror i had in my purse i held it to my skin ready to go deep into a vein to end all of this pain but then sarah grabed me from behind and took it off me.
"you cant lexi what would axel think if u did this uh what about your mum would she want u to do this to yoursefl"
i looked up at her and fell to the floor crying my eyes out she picked me up and took me to the bed and layed me down she turned to leave but i grabed her wrist
"p-p-plea-se d-d-on-tt l-lea-v-ve m-m-meee" i stutterd out
she layed down next to me and wraped her arms around me in a hugging way and started to hum saviour i fell asleep in her arms knowing that at least she wont taken from me my sis well not by blood but thats what she was to me.
