I woke with sarahs arms around me and me cuddle in to her chest i was confused then i remeberd last night and what happens ears sptang to my eyes and i just laid there letting them fall silently. half and hour later i was still crying when i felt someone wipe them away i looked up to see sarah smiling gently and sadly down at me she tighnted her arms around pulling me into her for a hug i warped my arms around her neck and let out a heavy sigh im so lucky to have a friend like her i couldnt ask for any one more caring and better i had a slight crush on her okay maybe a big crush but nothing could compare to how much i love axel even though he hurt me by leaving and never visting me or talking to me once.
"how are you feeling hun" i heard ask me in a gentle voice
"i dont know why it happend i miss them soo much i have no where to go apart from my aunties wich is so far away" i replied my voice coming out shakily.
i broke down in sobs she tried to calm me down after half an hour i was calm.
"im going to make some breakfast" she said ever so gently
i nodded after she left the room closing the door after her i looked for my purse wich as on the ground at the foot of the bed i grabed it and ran to the bathroom closing and locking it behind me i put my purse on the sink bench and dug threw it looking for my razor blad i finally found it i walked to the tub and ran a bath after it was the level i wanted it i put my razor on the side of it and striped i slowley slid into the tub i heard a knock on the door
"hun what are u doin and is bacon and eggs alright with u"
i took a big breath and said in a steady voice like i was fine
"im taking a bath and yummy sounds really good"
i was impressed how steady my voice came out i smiled alil then it vanished i felt tears slide down my face and watched them hit the water i grabed my razor blade and held it to my wrist pressing really hard i slid it across my wrist i watched the blood drop into the water i did this five times on each wrist pressing harder and harder the more i made in the end i had 10 really deep cut i watched the water slowley turning red i started to get dizzy my arms were still bleeding i could my life trickle out of me along with my blood tears ran down my cheeks making clear donts in the blood the bath was now basicly red not a blod red but red it was getting darker very slowley i heard a knock on the door
babe breaky is ready and some police officers want to talk to u"
i was to week to answer my eyes were so heavy now i dont think i could hold them open any longer i barley whisperd out
"sorry"
i heard more knocking
"babe answer me open this door now"
"BABE"
my eyes slowley closed the rest of the way just after i saw the door being kicked in
"no babe pls stay with me"
even though my eyes were closed i was still barely alive i felt her pulling me out of the tub and onto the floor i could hear her calling for help i heard ppl coming up the stairs i guess the police offcers i could feel a towel over me she was just a really good friend i was gunna miss her if i could in my afterlife that is if there was one i felt her gentle soft fingers stroking my cheek i felt her tears drop onto my cheek
"you cant leave me babe i love u i need u with me pls dont leave me here by myself i love u more then u understand its not a sisterly love" she whisperd into my hear
barley heard her not because of how low she whisperd it but because i was on the edge of uncoicse i couldnt feel anything anymore i sighed peacfully im my mind thinking its alll over know just before i slipped into to complete darkness.
