2019.10.03
So, it's been some days since I wrote here the last time. I did write in my personal diary though, so... Don't know, if this makes things any better? :D
Well... Uhm. I finally confessed to Lewis... What his reaction was? I think you already know it since I'm writing in an online diary instead of being with him or writing with him... I mean, he didn't *actually* said "no" but he made it quite clear. I also kinda gave him access to my diary? I mean, I felt like he could use the compliments in there... Well, I read it again yesterday and... oh boy, there are many, many cringy things in there, I wouldn't want him to know now...
But he now knows the entire truth. He knows, why we kept some secrets from him and he can understand many of my actions... I still love him of course. These feelings don't just vanish from one day to another. Neither does the jealousy but I hope it gets better over time... This is why I waited until now. Because now we have in and a half week holidays which means that we both can think about it, without having to face each other at school. To be honest I didn't want to face him just after that.
Oh, maybe you're wondering how I told him if I didn't want to face him... Well, I prepared a text and put it together with some other things (which I might explain sometime) on a USB stick and put it into his backpack to write him to take a look into it...
I am still scared to lose him as a friend... But he said he doesn't hate me just because of this, which is a good start I think...
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Some Kind Of Diary
De TodoSo, I've been writing some kind of diary and wondered "why not do something like this here, where people can read it, share their thoughts, discuss or things like that?" Yup, that's the reason why I started this diary. Also, it's going to include s...
