Burn

Chapter 16

Last nights tiring event caused us to knock out instantly. There wasn't even a good night. I reached over to kiss Lyssa and then we were out.

"Good morning honey" I say rubbing Lyssa's thigh.

She turns around instantly and smiles but I can still tell that there's something off about her this morning. I don't really know how long she's been up or what was going on in that beautiful head of hers but I was getting ready to find out.

"So how do I know that Mindy, or Laney, whatever is not really your wife? How do I know you're not just using me." She says. Tears come streaming down her eyes. This was the question that I'd been terrified to hear. I knew last night shouldv'e waited. I just wanted her to trust me.

In mid thought I remember that I had voice recorded the conversation Laney and I had that morning and sent it to Craig. I pulled out my phone and I let her listen to whole thing.

After listening she clung on to me tightly. I was she'd trust me from the beginning, though I couldn't blame her for feeling the way she did but I could tell that she would trust me for now on.

*azaria's POV*

My mind was racing, my heart was booming, and I couldn't help but be so hurt. Why so soon? Why did my mom have to leave so soon, why did my dad have to be a psycho and kill himself.

The most important question was why me. The only person that I seemed to have left was Nicky. We checked him out of the hospital and suddenly we were on our way.

We had to swing past my place first to get at least two or three extra pairs of of clothing. I didn't really know how long I'd stay but I just knew I couldn't stay at my house alone.

It took us about ten minutes to get to my house from the hospital and it was a silent ride but not awkward.. I couldn't even think of any words to say so I just kept quiet the whole time.

I walked up to the door and opened it slowly as if something was going to jump out at me and get me. The house was just the way we left it.

I didn't want to stay here any longer than I had to so I grabbed what I needed so I could hurry and get the hell out.

Passing through all our family portraits and single photos were becoming sickening.

The thought of my father made me sick to my stomach. I never knew I could have so much hatred for someone. Let alone for my own father.

The man who helped conceive me. He wanted me dead, now he's dead. All to hide his lies.

How could everything fall out of place so easily. How could one minute everything be perfect and then the next every thing is just fallen apart.

My life was all broken up into pieces and there was no way to put my pieces back together, for some had been lost, and some had disappeared forever.

Nicky and I were my last two pieces.

I had collapsed on the steps and tears came immediately afterwards. I think I'd been sitting their for about 20 minutes before Nicky came in and carried me out just how husbands carry their wives after arriving home from a honey money. He placed me in the front seat and quickly ran back to get my bags.

How lucky was I to have him. Just to think I was rejecting him not to long ago. Now I'm realizing that God put him here for me. He was made for me to protect me, to love me, to be here for me. He was my Nicky.

We sat there for a moment as he comforted me. Kissing me on my forehead and reassuring me that everything was going to be okay now.

I felt safe with him and even though I knew everything wasn't going to be okay at the moment, he gave me hope.

"Let's go home." He said smiling.

It took every inch in me not say that this was my home. I kept my comments to myself and smiled back.

The ride we were taking now was more peaceful. He turned on the radio and my song came on.

First things first I'm the realist.

The song began to play. Nicky looked at me as he knew I had a weakness for this song. I wasn't going to sing I wouldn't give him the satisfaction.

Come on Azaria you're stronger than this, you can do it. Ignore it, you can ignore it. I say in my head over and over again.

I couldn't fight the urge in me, I had to do it. I couldn't pass up my opportunity.

"I said baby I do this, I thought that you knew this." I shouted at the top of my lungs.

Nicky seemed pretty amused, he couldn't stop laughing at me.

He and I barely smiled and barely laughed since the other day so it was actually good to see his smile.

We finally arrived at the house after I played fancy over and over about three times.

Nicky grabbed all my bags and put them in his room.

His mom was standing in the kitchen making food.

"Azaria, how nice to see you." She said.

His mom was always nice to me and secretly I think she always wanted us to be together.

"How are you my dear." She said coming over to give me a warming hug.

My face lit up. It was nice to have someone else around who cared.

"I'm fine, thank you. And also thank you so much for letting me stay here, I really have no where else to stay."

I said.

"What's mine is yours sweetheart, make yourself at home."

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A.N

Thanks to all who are reading, I hope you enjoy. I just got a new phone so I will be more excited to update often. Vote and comment loves.

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