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Hello. My name is Elliot, and I'm depressed. I don't know how to describe myself....but if you look up Scorpio personality traits. That's me. I find I've been struggling too long. No one seems to get what I'm talking about either.... So, I figured I'll use my ability with words. It'll probably work like this: I'll write like diary entries once I catch up to now. Probably write a week's entries and upload that as a chapter. Thanks for reading.
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I was in kindergarten when it started. It started really small really. Little things, feeling empty at times.. Avoiding activities, not wanting to be social, and not wanting to get up and be active. I thought I just was lonely and sad. Plus, nobody seemed to notice.
Then came the self-hate. In white-hot flashes. I thought I deserved the mental pain that started... By now I was beginning first grade... I'd just started a new school in a different place.... I figured maybe it was people around me and I'd get better. I was little, so I was naïve and followed anyone I thought could make me forget it. I ended up hanging out with future mean girls.
I don't really remember much after that up until I became hospitalized for a kidney infection in second grade. I had major stomach pain; felt like being stabbed over and over again. Plus, somebody kicking the knife through my back. I laid down a lot, so when I had to get up... my spine was stiff and walking set my body on fire. This added to all my pain and self-hate. I wished for death badly... That was the first sign of being suicidal. :/
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Do you guys wanna hear more? I was nervous to write this. Lemme know if I should continue with my sob story. That's all my little raindrops! (Do you guys like that nickname? Little raindrops? I like it, I'm weird. Tell me any opinions you have!)
~ Elliot the Depressed Thing
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