Wake Up, It's Reality

Early Years

     The next year seemed fine at first.... I ditched the mean girls and sat alone over the summer. I kept one friend...and we didn't talk the next year. I made random friends. I'll change their names here for privacy. Let's say their names were Allegra and Millie. Allegra later betrayed me very harshly... not this year though. Millie used to scream harsh words at me, said her mom hated me. Said she was gonna kill me at one point... I mostly blanked it out... I'm just trying to recall. Anyways, the teacher found out..... Told us to resolve it... She didn't even care that this girl would try to physically harm me. I was devastated that no one cared... The year went on... About midway into the year, I met this girl. She just moved here from Georgia, and was a grade older then me. She was funny, shy, and had an accent. I was her very first friend. Let's say her name was Loren. We soon became super close. And I found out her townhouse neighbor was my crush. I began dating him, only to be cheated on him. I later found out one of these girls was Allegra. So, I felt ashamed and used. I turned to only best friend (who now had turned into a bully). She was self-centered, and terribly mean to other people. She controlled me, but I just assumed that's how best friends were. 

     (Okay, so the next part might be too disturbing for others. So, sexual warnings.)

     She began to start to try to pressure me to do things. Sexual things. I really didn't want to and kept saying no. Soon after that though... she started threatening me... It was little things at first. She threatened to tell and say things I didn't do. I continued to say no, and she didn't tell. Soon, she started making even bigger lies. I thought she was bluffing so I said no. She told some girl in her grade and I had nasty rumors going around. I felt terrible. She said she could all make it go away if I just agreed. I'm pretty sure I just sat there mute and she decided. She did stop the rumor... but I could've cared less. Every time I got the courage to say no, she'd make threats... Each getting worse and worse. Finally, when summer came. I broke free. 

     (End of warning. Sorry y'alls.)

     Next year I was briefly friends with her, hoping she changed. I'm too forgiving for my own good. She continued what she did the year before... and I finally broke free for good. I also found myself friends with Millie again. Plus, my friend Chloe. Yes, that's her actual name. She's my best friend to this day. Plus, she never has wronged me. Millie continued to bully me, and started saying I said things about Chloe. I got so fed up with all of the drama. I left them. I became friends with a popular girl. She has wronged me, but we're still friends so I'll call her... Lily. I was also friends with her older sister.... Missy. That's what we'll call them. I had a crush on Lily. Then I had a crush on Missy. Lots of drama and fighting. I then dated some guy in London, UK. They were there when he was a creepo. Basically it didn't end well. Plus, we have an inside joke with it forever now. Luckily, it seems laughable now. 

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(A/N)

     Hey guys! So I changed everyone's names except for Chloe. Just safety of identity. I know Chloe trusts me to keep her safe. I will put a lot of my best friend's first names in here. I know I come up with weird names. It's just Allegra's real name is unique. Millie has a typical name. So I just grabbed the first name on my mind. Missy and Lily are put cause they have Y ending names. Plus, all the first letters of every name is kept. Loren and Lily have the same name just spelled very differently. Anyways, this chapter didn't have as much of my depression... just more causes for it. Next chapter will be a depression focusing chapter. Bye my little raindrops!

                                                                                                        ~ Elli