My Story....

Chapter Five

They came for a visit.  Two girls. Salana and Tyleena. They stayed for the weekend. We all got to know each other. It was great, until we decided they should come back. You spent more time with them than you did with me. Shopping, dinners out to eat, movies, all of it was spent with them. It went back to how it was when it was just you and me... I was on my own island. You asked me why I stopped getting in your car. I told you it was weird getting in and not being noticed.

We were okay for awhile. Started hanging more. Now when I would get in your car, no one else would. Did you say something to them? I don't know. I guess it was more of me feeling left out. Having been the only one there without a sibling. So you wanted to give me one. And turns out they were sisters. So they had each other and I just felt alone. But you didn't understand that. You didn't understand that I felt alone surrounded by a family that wasn't my own.

A few months went by and it turns out they weren't the only two who needed a home. They had two little sisters. You asked me how I would feel about them coming. I said why not? Everyone deserves a second chance at a "happy" life. I quote happy because it wasn't the life any of us thought we would have. Maybe we were all better off where we were before we met you. They came August 23rd, 2014. My sophomore year of high school. The year before everything would go from bad to full on burning in hell. Two years later and I was officially yours.... Neither of my parents bothered to return phone calls or show up to court hearings. Neither of them bothered to try to get me back. Since they didn't show up to fight to keep their rights over me, they lost me. It was like I was a trophy and the best would win.. But Darlene, you weren't the best... The irony.

I ran away for the first time.. You had taken my phone for God knows what reason. And I was mad. I mean come on I was 16, i deserved to be mad. I literally never did anything wrong. I never lied to you, I never did anything I wasnt supposed to do (Well nothing that you found out about anyway), I always cooked and cleaned, I had good grades. So why did you take my phone?  You took everyone skating and left me home alone. So I took my phone and packed a backpack and left. I called my dad at work and went there. He called you... Why on earth did he call you? Right, because you adopted me. You were now my legal guardian.

I had beautiful braids. Micro braids. They were nice. You took about 50 of them out. Out of the middle of my head. I was crying because I didn't want to be in your house anymore. I didn't want to live there, but i had nowhere else to go so I was stuck with you. 2 more years. You were taking my hair down telling me to shut up crying.

"A person this ugly on the inside deserves to look that way on the outside."

And then you went upstairs and didn't say anything to me until the next morning and you wanted your coffee.