Basically, Random Shit (mostly songs tho so yea)

15.4.19

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어쩔 수 없어서 버렸어
모든 감정을 지웠어
널 애써 지울 수 없어서 (Let me free)
내 맘이 안쓰러워서 (Let me breathe)

이대로 살면 돼 숨 쉬면 돼
살아있기만 하면 돼 왜 안돼
내가 괜찮다는데 (Let me free)
내가 이게 더 나은데 (Let me breathe)

칼날 같은 네 말에
베일까 두려웠어 난
숨 쉬고 밥을 먹는
채로 그냥 버티기만 해
나는 비겁했어 버티고 싶었어
내 손에 내 가슴을 쥐고
나를 위하는 삶을 선택했어 난

나를 놓치기 싫어
나를 더 망치기 싫어
끝나도 끝나지 않는 기억에
이길 자신이 난 없어

사랑 같은 건 결국
한 사람에겐 거짓말
이젠 널 잊는 나를 지켜봐
두 눈 똑바로 뜨고서
넌 절대 날 잊지 마

넌 나를 지우지 마

심장을 절뚝거리다 이 길의 끝은 여기야
라고 단정 짓고 숨 한 모금
들이쉬고 나서는 깊은 한숨을 내쉬며
가슴에 그녀를 다 찢어
소리 없는 비명을 지르다가
이리저리 떠다니는 잔상을 지워
남아있는 추억들을 하늘 위로 불태워 burn

나를 놓치기 싫어
나를 더 망치기 싫어
끝나도 끝나지 않는 기억에
이길 자신이 난 없어

사랑 같은 건 결국
한 사람에겐 거짓말
이젠 널 잊는 나를 지켜봐
두 눈 똑바로 뜨고서
넌 절대 날 잊지 마

널 다시 만났어 울었어
뭔가 잘못돼 버렸어
가슴이 기억하고 있어 (Let me free)
전부 그대로였어 (Let me breathe)
더 피할 곳이 없어 너를

너를 잡으면 아픈
놓아도 더 아픈 나를
꿈속의 꿈보다 깊은 이곳을
벗어날 자신이 없어

잊는다는 건 전부
남겨진 나의 거짓말
가슴에 다시 번지는 얼굴
전보다 아픈 것 같아
더 그리운 것 같아

더 해로운 것 같아

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I've been on a binge spree for 2nd generation K-pop songs since last night. Can't exactly figure out why, but it feels so sentimental and nostalgic listening to them. 

Surprisingly, I was introduced to the genre by accident. I was around 9 or something by that time, and we were watching this music channel featuring the newest songs. MBLAQ's "It's War" was playing and my dad felt that it was pretty catchy to listen to. He ended up downloading it (and Wonder Girls, he got pretty good taste) and we would listen to it in the car every time we went out. Originally, I knew absolutely nothing at that time and assumed it was 2PM (stan them) until i was fully endorsed into K-pop. This was when I was 12, and my friends and I would just jam out in between classes to BTS and such. I decided to ask my friend who actually sang "It's War" since I only knew the lyrics and she told me who they were. 

I have to admit, 2nd generation K-pop was something. Every group had quite their own unique style and individuality which made them stand out against each other. Many songs I've been binging so far have a melodramatic, sad tone (mainly because I'm a sad person hewhew) and it felt..well, pretty nostalgic.

Now, I'm not trying to compare either, but before I was fully into BTS (which was in, War of Hormone era or so?) there is one group that I really did enjoy. It's called MYNAME, and though I can't say much of them now (haven't heard about them in a while) they have some good bops you can listen to. Go check out Baby I'm Sorry and have a take at it. They're an amazingly talented group, but I really want to know what's happening surrounding them. The last time I did they were promoting in Japan.