Who's Really the Crazy One Here?

Chapter 22

You leaned into the touch against your cheek looking up at Blitzy. Icy smiled faintly at you thumb stroking over your cheek softly. You sighed softly at him and closed your optics.

"This is a dream isn't it?" You murmured

"Berhaps. Does it matder?" He asked running his thumb against your derma

You kissed his thumb gently, "A little. It's not technically you."

He shrugged, "Is zere zomething vrong vith dreams?"

"No... just that mine tend to lie and be fake." You murmured

"Now zat's not fery bozidiffe mein flover!" Random laughed smoothing your face between his servos

You chuckled a little at him, "For one, I am normal, the femme you fell in love with, the femme I'm not anymore."

"Mein flover vu Hareally schtill zee one I fell in loffe vith, I neffer schtobed loffing vu." Icy hummed softly

"Hopeful words for a figment of my imagination." You sighed chuckling, "I'm someone else, I hate it, and when you find out you'll hate me forever."

"I could neffer hate vu."

"You never had a reason too."

You turned away from him and rubbed over your face sighing softly. You pulled your servos away to stare down at the energon stained armor.

"I hate what t he war made me, I hate what they made me..." you swallowed thickly, "The war has made as do awful unforgivable things... I can't dare imagine what I could do without my mercy..."

Blitzy remained silent. He wasn't really your Blitzy, he could only say what you wanted him to say, what you think he would say. Nothing that you haven't already thought of.

You sighed and sat down, "All I can do is remain trapped in my own processor and cry and call out for help to deaf bots! I... I'm weak, I'm a fool."

You were crying now your own tears washing away the fake dream facade hiding your broken features, you shakily traced down from your optic. Your digits followed the depression from where metal pulled apart from metal forming an ugly crack.

You wept, mourned the life that you couldn't have, the life that was once promised to you with bait you couldn't see was rotten to the core. Regret. Regret is something you knew well.

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You grumbled as a light shake woke you from your broken dreams. You gazed at the face of Icy. You tilted your helm.

"Can I.... help you?"

"I could as vu zee zame gueszion." He stated plainly

"What? What... do you... mean Blitzy?"

"Vu vere vimbering in your recharge. Is zomething vrong?" Random was quick to pop in, "DID VU HAFFE EIN NIGHTMARE!?"

you blinked in surprise and sighed, "Sort of?"

"DON'T VORRY MEIN FLOVER I VILL BRODECT VU FROM HANYTHING ZAT DARES TO MAKE VU CRY!"

"JA, IF HANYTHING DARES TO MAKE VU CRY I SCHALL RIP OFF ZEIR HELMS UND PRAD ZEM TO Ein BULP!" Hothead cut in

You couldn't help but smile a little at the mech, "I'm sure... you would."