Emma just gave birth to the baby me and Ethan have been in our apartment for 8 months and 1 week we haven't spoken to James Jamie or melody at all until now
"Grayson what are you doing here"
"If she's not looking after my child I will"
"And that's why she wouldn't tell me whose it was"
The doctor gave me all the files to fill out and I got to pick her name
Lilly-Mae Dolan
I wondered why Emma didn't want the baby but she considered giving it to me
Did she not want a kid yet
Or it would've been a reminder of me
I can't look after a kid
Can I?
I can try
*time skip*
It's October 7th
Lilly-Mae's 1st birthday today
Im ready to celebrate it
She can talk a little
And Ethan bailed quite a while ago
He left without saying goodbye 6 months ago
Nobody has seen him since
It's been on the news they think he was kidnapped or something but nobody knows
Me and Ethan will be 18 in a few months
I miss him
He comes back for 7 months and and leaves again
Ethan
I wish I wasn't in this situation
I'm in LA again
I have to keep low
I don't need anyone seeing me after leaving
I left for one reason
To die
But I haven't done it yet
I don't know why
My depression it's got worse
Way worse
I'm doing it later
Finally
The time to do it
No letters
Nobody to stop me
A place where nobody
Will find me
And save me
Grayson
Me James Jamie and melody were watching a movie when breaking news interrupted yes we are all friends again
"Breaking news sorry for the interruptions but a 17 year old who we thought was kidnapped has been found"
I sit up and so did everyone
Realising they were talking about Ethan
"17 year old Ethan Dolan found hanging in a forest in LA"
A tear fell from my eye
"He was found at the perfect moment he is not dead but in the hospital barely surviving sorry for the interruptions thank you goodnight"
Suddenly my phone was blowing up with notifications
@graysondolan wish you all the best xx
@graysondolan you'll get through it xx
@graysondolan sorry
I didn't need to read the rest
I put my phone down on the counter
I stood up
"We're going to LA"
"How do you know where he will be"
"I have my ways"
I got a notification on Instagram after my phone calmed down
@jenniferbitchhh has requested to send you a message
I open it up
J-hi G-hello you're ethans friend right J-yeah I know what hospital he's in wanna meet G-yeah sure meet me at the airport J-yeah sure this is me I'm 12 btw
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G-You already know what I look like
I go upstairs and pack my stuff after everyone left
