Diary of a 15 year old girl

Day 1

Hiya. School was absolute crap. This girl kissed me. I am not lesbian! God save me. So, from the start. Ever since I started high school, this girl has always been really weird, me and my friends joked about her liking me and being bi or whatever and then just last year we found out that she's lesbian. Then me and my friends began thinking that maybe she does have a crush on me. She does. So...today I went into the toilets and I checked my phone because it's what I do every lunch and break. I had one message from my mum, just saying that she might be late when she picks me up. So I was like okay.

I went out of the toilets and the girl (who likes me), let's call her Jess, was waiting for me. I smiled at her (a fake smile) washed my hands and then dried them. Jess walked with me as I went out of the toilets, she took my hands in hers and I was like laughing very awkwardly because I didn't know what to do and she lead me outside.

This is where the crap happens.

We sat on the banking together, in silence. I began to get up because I needed to go. She was making me extremely uncomfortable and then she's like no don't go. Look, I'll do a re-enactment.

Jess: Don't go
Me: I have to go, my friends will be looking for me
Jess: They won't, it doesn't matter
Me: (starts walking away)
Jess: (grabs my hand and pulls me towards her)
Me: Get off! (slaps her away)
Jess: I really really like you (kisses me)
Me: (shoves her away really quickly before anything else can happen, see's teacher runs down banking and runs inside)

So. That happened. To me. And, I still haven't told anyone. Except from you guys.

And you know the thing is no one, NO ONE saw anything happen. I guess I'm grateful for that because if anyone did see, maybe someone did see but. Hang on I don't know. What I'm trying to say is that if I tell someone they probably won't even believe me and they'll think I'm lying I don't have any proof...but yeah.

Let's get this right, I don't have anything against gay people or anything like that. It's just she kissed me on the lips and as sad as it is, that was my first kiss ON THE LIPS! And it's by someone I absolutely hate with every part of me. I hate her so much. Don't worry I will be nasty to her, I'll tell someone soon. And I will do something about it, I just don't know when.

Anyways byeee xo