Diary of a 15 year old girl

Day 4

Hiya, so I went through and I read the last thing I uploaded and I sounded like a tapped little girl. I'm like more mentally stable now. God. Okay, so I don't really wanna explain all that again but I did say that I had a lot more to tell you. I do.

So, school. I'm ready to talk about that now. That fucking lesbian bitch that kissed me (Jess) has literally turned everyone against me. I'm not gonna lie, everyone used to like me and like they'd chill with me, I'd chill with them. I used to be what was known as 'popular'.

Now I literally have one friend. He's really amazing, I love him so much man, I'm glad I've got him. He's called, Harrison. Well, he's not actually but I really like that name. I haven't mentioned him in this because he doesn't come to my school but he's moving now. He was meant to ages ago but there was no space but now, there finally is.

So, I've been chilling by myself. But I don't mind, because I just know who my real friends are now. No one! Ha!

If my 'friends' really were my friends then they wouldn't have turned their mother fucking backs on me. So, they were not my real friends, case closed.

Um, Jess has been talking shit about me to like everyone and now everyone gives me dirty looks and some people even blocked me. Honestly, she must have been talking a load of crap to make people BLOCK me. Jess, she's a very manipulative person. And, I'm going to kill her and make it look like an accident. Guys, I'm joking. I'm joking. But that's what I really want to do.

Teachers have been giving me special treatment and one of them asked if I wanted to go to therapy sessions! Therapy sessions!

I'm going to give you the briefs. Nothing special happened in school, except for everyone hating me. 

At home, God a lot more happened. But I'm alright.

So, you see my mum she's been getting really angry at me lately. Not my sisters, just me. Which is really quite weird. My mum is hardly ever angry at me.

1. Me and my mum were in the car, she makes food for my aunty and it's really nice. Trust me. Everyone asks my mum to make them food and she does. So, I was sat in the front with the plates on my lap and then it was a 10-minute drive. My mum forgot her phone and to get into the apartment you need to call them. My mum got really pissed and started screaming at me and because I didn't bring mine either she was very angry. I was about to bite my nail and my mum slapped my hand so hard that I flung the plates off my lap and it broke and a piece of that weird glass went in my hand. My mum was like are you okay and when I said yes, she started screaming at me like loads. And my clothes were dirty and the car and my mum got so close to literally crying. I felt really bad because even though I knew it wasn't my fault I felt like it was. My hand was really hurting and as much as I wanted to cry, I didn't. So, my mum said as like the last threat or whatever aha she said if I brought my phone out when I didn't need it she'd break my phone and my arm. So that was quite a nice little bonding time.

2. Me and my sister hang on, my sister and I were playing ludo and it was like 11 pm and my mum came up and got really angry because we were wasting our time. My mum literally thrashed the board and then chucked it on the floor but it went on my foot. My sister didn't see, my mum did but she just walked out and my foot really hurts. Like really bad. She didn't shout at my sister she only looked at me and I'm pretty sure that she meant it towards me.

3. So, this is the last thing that happened and I don't think it's as bad but I just thought I'd tell you anyways. So, I was walking back from school with my neighbour, he's a guy, I literally saw him walking and he saw me and we live on the same street so we're like oh we might as well walk together. We're not close or anything we're just like talking. And my mum was coming back from the shops and saw me walking with that guy and she parked up and horned. Woo re-enactment time:

Mum: Maisy! You-what are you doing?! Who's this?!

Neighbour: I'm-

Mum: Was I asking you? (says this quite calmly)

Me: Um, it's okay you can go I'll be home in like 10 minutes

Mum: No! Get in the car, now! Maisy!

Me: (shakes head)

Mum: (gets out the car and grabs my arm and literally drags me into the car)

Neighbour: Are-what? Um, Maisy-

Me: It's okay, go please go-

Mum: Get in the car you disgrace

Me: (sits in the car and gets a whole fucking lecture, almost get's a slap but luckily my mum never slaps me)

So, I just thought I'd tell you. Don't worry, I'm okay. I'm used to it all. And, this is like the first time that my mum's gotten this angry. Actually, no. She has gotten but she would always say sorry. Not this time, no I just got even more screamed at. But I get it if I was my mum I'd do the same. She's stressed about us, about my dad, about money. I mean who isn't but...

Yeah, love you guys have an amazing day. Bye xo