WHAT if we never met in the first place? May magbabago kaya? What if we never really met ? Ganito pa rin ba ako?
I'm in this club again where we first met . Di tulad ng ibang romantic movies where the place seems so nice and magical. We're so loud , careless, wild --- and broke. That time we're filling our so fuck up life with that hot liquior.
At eto nakaupo ako same corner of this club, same high chair , same choice of drinks, party songs, familiar faces even this flirtatious bartender. But one thing is different-- wala ka.
I got dizzy after a few shots pero tuloy tuloy pa rin ako. Last time na pumunta ako dito ganito rin ako. Miserable , nadudurog. Ikaw rin naman but it's like destiny plot everything between us. I thought it was destiny. I almost thought it was love.
I fell deeply with your spell. With your smell.
I like how you say my name. Your voice, your deep baritone yet cold voice. I like how you give me goosebumps with your touch. But later on. I learn how to love your trashy words. Your reckless actions. Your mannerism. And your deep dark painful past.
I love every part of you.
To the point that I drown even if I know how to swim
It's just that I have no plans on saving myself from drowning deep in love with you.
Pucha sana lumangoy nalang pala ako.
I opened my eyes once again at humarap sa mga taong nasa dance floor. Maybe just this one night I'll forget about everything first. Magpapakasaya muna ako , pwede rin namang lumandi.
I search for a possible target .My eyes locked with a guy that has a light brown eyes. I looked at him .No, we stared at each other , maybe a couple of minutes. Linagok ko muna ang alak na iniinom ko at dumaloy ang iba nito sa leeg ko still not breaking our contact.
I smiled at him seductively habang naglalakad ng pagewang gewang papalapit sakanya . Napasinghap ako ng gumapang ng marahas ang mga kamay nya sa bewang ko, massaging it gently.I don't know if it's because of the liquior but i felt so hot.
Pure sweat drawn into my head and neck .We dance together with the beat. I'm giving my best shot as I move my hips errotically .
I hold my breathe as I felt his arousal. He smiled at me as I looked with his deep green eyes. Oh my golly delicious.
We stayed like that for a moment . A lot of party people is minding their own business. Loud sexy music is on air. And the variety of lights is blinding me. I know I'm drunk already. And I like this boy in front of me.
I was enjoying my moment when this boy lean his head into my ears. I tensed up when he bite my ears and circle his tounge on my earlobe. I felt goosebumps over me. His hands roam into my legs up to my but. My eyes become aggressive as I noticed that. I pushed him apart of me but he became persistent. His hand massage my one breast.I gasped because of the sensation but thats just it.
I pushed him hard.
" Hey why? Baby? You make me hard so take responsibility " he said with his eyes pure of lust.
Naging marahas ang mga sunod sunod nyang paghila sa akin habang pilit kong inilalayo ng sarili ko sakanya. Naantala ang pagpupumiglas ko ng may bumanga sa amin.
" Sorry " I frozed when I heard his voice.
Unti unti kong itinaas ang paningin ko sakanya .I met his gaze. His eyes bore to mine like I don't interest him at all. Walang paki kahit alam nyang hinaharass na ako ng lalaking kasama ko.
Malayo sa dating tao na tagapagtanggol ko.That person who will caged me on his arms possessively.
Nalipat ang tingin ko sa babaeng kasama nya.Napakaganda, napakaamo. Lumamlam ang mga mata ko habang tinitingan ang mga bulto nilang papalayo.
Bumalik ako dito ng durog samantalang sya buong buo. Bakit ang dali nyang kalimutan ako? Samantalang ako di ko magawa gawa?
Wala na ba talaga? Hindi na ba talaga mababalik? Ang hirap kasi eh, napakasakit. I'm bleeding without an aid. Bakit ako lang yung nahihirapan?
And then I wondered...
What if we never really met?
Siguro di ako nasasaktan ngayon.But you know what's funny? Hindi ko magawang magsisi na nakilala kita.
Because I love those moment. I love you.
