Vent book

I Don't Feel Happy If I'm Looking at Other Couples

I don't have a lover. Guess that's frustratingly obvious. I'm gonna be alone till the day I die and I don't think I deserve any of God's love because I'm nothing but a mistake and a freak of nature. Maybe I'm just a Sinner like everyone tells me.
People tell me to move on and stuff but I can't. What's wrong with me?