Who do ya love ?(urban)

Chapter 14

It's been weeks since I talked to Damien. He hasn't stop by or tried to reach out to me which I truly appreciate. Last week the girls on the dance team were telling me he started talking to a couple of girls. I'm happy for him though. these few weeks have taught me so much about myself. I realized I don't need to be in a relationship right now, being single won't kill me. As I was getting out of the shower my homegirl Nia calls.
"Hey Nia what's up"
"Sht what you doing tonight"
"I don't have plans so what's up"
"I wanna go to this house party on 25th"
"25th??? Mother fucker are you trying to kill me"
"Girl 25th ain't even that bad anymore I asked remi"
"Of course Remi gone say that his ass strapped.....we not"
"Uuugghhh are you going or not"
"If I go we leave before 12"
"We can leave at 11, I just wanna show my face and hangout"
"Ight so let me know when you on the way I gotta go to the mall"
"K. Bye love you"
"Love you too"
          LATER THAT NIGHT
Nia picked me up at about 9:30. We felt like we get there too early so we went to McDonald's and shared some food in the car. When we stepped into the house party it was jumping. Nia wore her cute all back bodysuit with a lime glow in the dark jacket with her lime heels. I wore a red dress that fit my body so good it stoped at my knees and some black heels. I felt like I went all out for this party I put on makeup and curled my hair. I never do both to go anywhere it's always either one or the other. Me and Nia walked to the kitchen/bar and got a couple drinks, then started acting a fool on the dance floor. I was definitely tipsy but I wasn't drunk. Break ya back by Lucas coly came on and Nia lost it. She love that yellow boy she started twerking on me and eventually getting everyone's attention. After that song died down Freak my shit came on and I lost it. I used to love that song, me and Nia switch roles and she couldn't keep up so I just did my thing. I felt someone staring a whole into my face and realized it was Damien. I turned his direction and smiled. He looked pissed and I loved that sight. A few minutes later I felt a different presence behind me. I felt a dick rise from behind me, I stopped and turned around to Damien.
"What you stopping for? You wanna freak, come on freak my shit I'm the only one you freaking tonight"
"Man Damien move with the bullshit"
"Naaahhh we gotta talk"
"Nothing to talk about" I said walking to find Nia.
"Man if you looking for Nia, Remi dicking her down so she not coming out no time soon"
"Ugghh I need to go home"
"Lemme take you, I haven't drank all night I promise you"
"Fine but take me home"
We walked out to his car and he opens the door for me and then got in the car.
"So what's up Khlo? I gave you your space and tonight you still acting funny"
"I'm not acting funny I just didn't want you on me we not together so I deserve my space right" "and don't you have a girl"?
"Khloe stop fucking playing with me right now" he said through gritted teeth. I could see his face getting red through his brown complexion, his grip tightened around the stirring wheel. If I'm being honest I was turned on, I like to see him mad.
"Look Dai I dong want to be anything more with you anymore I just wanna be best friends again"
"Fuck best friends! Khloe I love you, I told my mom about you girl, I'm planning for my life with you and you have the nerve to tell me some shit like that...maaann don't say sht else to me"
There was nothing I could do but sit back in the seat and look out the window. I felt the hurt in his voice and I know he loves me but I still think I'm making the right decision. After I while I realized he wasn't taking me home by the looks he was taking me to his house. I hadn't seen his mom since we got into it so I am a little nervous after everything that he said. We arrived at his place he came around and opened my door and waited held my hand helping me to the door. We didn't speak at all even though it was killing me not being able to yell at him because I know his hurt and yelling would lead to more tension and hurt. Once he open the door he still held my hand walking me to the stairs. I was about to go up until I felt him turn me around and I sat down. He took my feet and began to take off my heels, he gently placed them by the door. He grabbed my hand again and let me lead up to the stairs to his room. After making sure I was good he went to check on his mom abs the kids I assumed. He came back shutting the door and taking off his pants and shirt.
"Come shower with me" was the first thing I heard his say since the car.
" I don't think that's a good idea"
"I didn't ask if it was" he said walking up to me
No we are face to face his hands on my waist my chest against his, our lips almost touching. He put his cold hand on my back making me arch my back allowing our lips to touch. Damn I miss his lips, touch...fuck I miss him. He slipped his tongue in my both while grabbing on my ass, our kisses were passionate no lust pure affection behind them. We finally pulled apart and he pecked me a few times before laying me on the bed taking off my dress.
"Dai we are not having sex we aren't even-"
"Don't you dare finish that sentence I don't wanna hear that just lay down we not having sex damn". With that he disappeared into the bathroom he cane back and picked me up all I had on was a black thong and my bra too match. He put me down in the bathroom where there was a perfect bubble bath. After taking off my clothes he put me in and got naked and got in behind me. He washed me first then himself. After washing us he just held me while I silently cried. I knew I deserved better and I loved how he was treating me but I knew it wouldn't last forever. I'd been treated like shit in my last relationship and didn't acknowledge it now I am and I'm not sure what to do next.