Forever Changed

Outbursts

Sarah's POV:

As Dillian and I were watching the movie, I noticed he seemed a little off. He didn't say anything though. He was just staring at me every now and then. When I caught a glimpse of his eyes, they looked full of emotion. Like he was feeling guilty. "Babe, are you okay?" I finally decide to ask, because it was just starting to bug me.

"Uhuh. Yep I'm fine. I mean why wouldn't I be?" He said this quickly, making me a little suspicious.

"Are you sure?"

"I said I'm fine! Would you just fucking drop it!" He snapped.

Dillian has never snapped at me like that before. Did I do something wrong. What the hell, I know I didn't. "Okay then. I'm just gonna leave now and give you some time to yourself, because you clearly need it." With that, before he could say anything, I got off the bed and grabbed all of my stuff.

"Sarah wait! I didn't mean to snap like that. You don't have to leave." I heard before I walked out of his room. But I'm not gonna stay if he's gonna start acting like this. I don't deserve it.

"Are you gonna tell me what the hell is going on with you?" He looked at me hesitantly with more guilt clouding his eyes. I start to feel bad for snapping back like that until he said what I wasn't expecting.

"No I am not because I can't, and I won't. But if your gonna act like a stuck up bitch then it's whatever. Just leave!" 

I felt the tears forming, but I will not let them show. I was being a reasonable person. But he thought of me as a stuck up bitch. I can't do this. "Well if that's what you really think of me, then our whole relationship has been a lie. You have changed Dillian. I can't keep doing this. I love you but you have been so fucking bi-polar about what you feel towards me. We are through!" I saw his eyes widen in surprise. But I couldn't let him get the last word so I turned around and started walking away before he could. I walked as fast as I could. I was almost to the door when I heard him running towards me. 

"Sarah, wait! You can't break up with me. This can't happen. Please don't leave me, it will ruin my whole life!"

"I'm sorry Dillian. Wait a second, how in the hell is me leaving going to ruin your whole life? Let's not be dramatic. I love you but you don't seem to be the same person. You have been looking at me all the time recently with guilt filled eyes and your hiding something from me. I can't be with someone like that! What are hiding from me?" His eyes looked so mixed with emotion. I didn't know what to say. He just stood there staring at me not knowing what to say. Well that's a first. Why couldn't he just answer and put an end to this. Just open up to me. I realize he wasn't going to answer my questions or respond, so I turned to the front door and left.

I text my mom and ask her if she can come and pick me up. She responds fast with a yes and she'll be here as soon as  possible. I start walking up his driveway thinking about all that happened. I can't believe it actually did. But he has been acting different lately. I can't quite pin point everything that has changed, but it definitely has. Lucky my house wasn't that far of a drive because as soon as I finished my walk up Dillian's long drive-way, I saw my mom pulling up. Thank god for that. I turned around to look at the house one more time. Just to see if Dillian will change his mind and run-out to explain everything. But he doesn't. I just see him standing at the door watching me leave. Watching me walk away from him. I open the passenger door to my mom's red Chevy and buckle up. I look out the tinted window as I start to feel the tears finally starting to slip from my heavy eyes. 

"Are you okay baby? Do you want to talk about it?" I hear my mom ask barely because my head is spinning with the events of what all that has happened. 

"Maybe later mom. I don't think I can explain anything right now, because I can barely wrap my own head around it." I reply in a faint whisper. I know she heard me though.

"Okay Sarah. But I expect you to tell me later. I'm always here for you. I'm your mother. I will always be here till the end."

"Promise?" I ask in need of reassurance. I just don't know what to all believe anymore.

"Of course babygirl!"

However, little did my mom and I know, is that promise wasn't going to be fulfilled due to a little thing called fate and heartbreaking accidents.