"... what?" my heart stops for a split second. Tears burn my eyes. I feel sick, and I start shaking. My Christina? "Are you serious? She's.... she's alive?"
"Yeah. She's alive," Cara smiles and squeezes my hand.
"My Christina?" I check, still in disbelief. She nods, and I feel like a weight's been lifted from my chest. "Oh my.... oh my god.... she..." I let out a sob; not one of sadness as always. One of relief. Maybe even happiness. Although I've forgotten what that feels like. "I thought..."
"I know," Cara says with a small laugh. "Now this is probably a dumb question, but... do you want to see her?"
"... can I?"
"Of course you can. You need to."
***
Cara takes me to the hospital, and shows me to Christina's room. I'm scared to go in, at first. What if they're wrong, and it isn't her? But it has to be.
I take a deep, calming breath and walk into the room. She's the first thing I see.
Christina's lying in a hospital bed, connected to all kinds of machines. Sleeping.
I almost collapse with relief, and rush over to sit beside her.
"Oh my... oh my God, Christina..." I take her hand and stroke her hair softly. "Honey... I thought I'd lost you. You have no idea how much I've been hurting lately. I've just wanted to be with you, baby... I love you. More than anything."
I bend down and kiss her forehead, letting my forehead rest against hers for a moment. "I've missed you so much, Chris..."
I wipe new tears from my eyes with my sleeve and take in a deep, shaky breath.
"I..." I sigh gently and squeeze her hand. "I'm so sorry I didn't get to you earlier. I'm sorry I haven't been here the whole time... I'm sorry if you felt like I stopped caring. I never stopped caring, I promise. I... I didn't know you were in here. If I knew, I swear I wouldn't have left your side. But I'm so sorry... you must've been so scared, left alone here... I-"
I'm cut off as I feel her squeeze my hand back. "Chris...? Come on honey, wake up..."
She doesn't wake up. Maybe I imagined it. Idiot.
"You are going to wake up... aren't you?"
I remember what Cara told me on the way here. Apparently Christina hasn't shown any sign of waking up since she got here all those months ago. They don't know if she will wake up. "You have to," I whisper, fighting back more tears. "You have to fight this. You promised you wouldn't leave me, and you can't, okay? I need you. And I love you. So much. More than I let you know. You have to stay, okay? Please. For me."
I rub her hand with my thumb, sighing gently. "I've really, really missed you. I thought you'd died... I hated myself for letting you go. I just wanted to be with you again... I... I've been in a really bad place recently. I've been shutting people out, and... I know you wouldn't have wanted that. But... no one understood how much I love you. I mean... Tris did, of course. And my sister... I swear they've been the only people keeping me alive lately."
Christina's POV
For so long, nothing but darkness and silence. And then the dreams came. Horrible, terrifying dreams, that I couldn't wake up from. Everyone I love dying. Tris. Will...
I came to convince myself that this had truly happened, that I was remembering what happened before.
There was nothing, after that. Just darkness and silencc, all over again.
Then I heard him. I heard Will.
I must be dreaming. It can't be him... can it?
A/N; Would you look at that I updated
