Fading Heart

Understand

Napabuntong hininga ako habang tinititigan ko ang mga listahan ng homeworks at upcoming exams na magaganap sa linggong ito..

Ilang oras na lang ba ang tulog ko mula ng mag start ang term na ito?

But I am trying not to stress out myself because that won't cause me anything good,  I've already practiced how to properly work with my time anyway.

"Hey babe! What are you working?, can I help?" Hindi ko na namalayan na nasa tabi ko na pala si Eric, my longtime boyfriend. And maybe I wouldn't have ever noticed him if he didn't talk.

"Thanks babe, but I think I'm fine" I humbly said

"Okay, but will you eat lunch with me today?  I cooked your favorite"

"But babe.. I'm kind of busy"

"Please, it's been a while since the last time we've done this together. I promise, this won't take much of your time" I heard him beg, I looked at him in the eyes, and with that, I know I can't resist him this time.

"Well I guess I'm already hungry" I said before I heard him sigh in relief..

Itinabi ko na muna ang mga gamit ko, para bigyang espasyo ang aming kakainin..

With our 5 years relationship, he hadn't failed to impress me with his genuine acts. Hanggang ngayon, parang liniligawan pa din niya ako. He would support me in every way, and I can't thank him enough for that.

I looked at him while we're sharing the lunch he made, I can still see that genuine love that's making me fall for him. He smiled and I did the same. How did I even deserve him?

"You're looking at me weirdly again babe!" He snapped

"Oh sorry, I got carried away"

"Bakit naman?"

"Iniisip ko lang kung paano kita mapapasalamatan sa lahat ng pagmamahal na binibigay mo sa akin babe" I answered.

After our quick lunch, I continued reviewing my notes bilang paghahanda sa darating na midterm exams ko.

Medschool is a challenge to me. After gaining 99 percentile on my NMAT, I thought I was already prepared to face this, but that's before I was faced with the real world.

I've dedicated most of my time in achieving this dream, and now that I'm almost there I can't bear to loose any second that I can give to have it.

That's why I am thankful to have Eric in my life. He've been dedicated to md even when I've dedicated most of my time to achieve whatever that I can for medschool.

"Alam mo ang swerte mo kay Eric" hindi mapigilang banggit ni Ciara, ang pinakamatalik kong kaibigan

"Alam ko, kaya mahal na mahal ko yun eh"

"Pero mas mahal ka niya, despite of your busy medschool life, he would still make his own way to show you his love..
Alam mo girl, other boys this time won't be able to stand that kind of situation. Kaya bilib ako sa Eric mo, iba siya girl"

"Ciara, I am only doing this to prepare for our future. This isn't only my dream but also his. And besides, we've already made a promise of forever"

"Pero Arrie, advice ko lang sa'yo ha. You should also spare him some of your time, so he won't forget that you also love him. His keeping up with you Arrie, but are you keeping up with him?"

"Alam kong naiintindihan niya ako" I said with finality.

I know sometimes I fail to give him my time, but I also know that he understands me.