His breath, his air, his life. His Everything.

Chap 20

2 weeks. Trying to forget him, is my goal at the moment. Which by the way is extremely hard, I'm trying to completely forget about him and get everything like it used to be, you know, when I was on my own, and my goal was to succeed in life, and get good grades, not to forget about a fucked up boy who took full control of me. But forgetting him is not even the hardest part, the hard part is seeing him everyday, either walking by , at a football game, or making out with some random girl..And having eye contact with him makes me panic and my heart pound like 200km per hour. So I try to prevent that from happening at all costs.

So here I am, laying on my bed, looking at the ceiling listening to some music. I wish this never happened. I wish i never met him and just looked at him as a messed up guy who played and broke girls heart, like I did at first.

As I was thinking I heard some very loud banging coming from my door which almost made me shit my self. I quickly stood up and removed my head phones and thought about my next step. Either ask who is there and let them know that there is in fact someone in this room, or just open the door and pray for the best. So I walked to my door and slowly opened the door. Bad idea.

I saw a very angry, sad like Marvin standing on the other side of the door with a beer on one hand and his other on the door Handel, as if he knows I'm gonna close the door immediately after seeing him, which I was planning to do but after seeing him in that state my body just wouldn't let me. I looked up at his eyes as he looked down at mine with both sadness and lust.

"Kitten" he mumbled with a smile and a cranky like voice that scared me. "Nice to see you again, being beautiful as ever"

I stood up straight with my hands tight against the door " I think you should go" I said.

He softly pushed against the door and I immediately tried to close it , but my 'strength' , is nothing compared to his so of course he opened it.

I walked back still keeping my eyes on him as he closed the door.

"I'm sorry" he crocked out.

"Marv-"

" Ariana stop no, please just let me talk, I can't take this shit anymore alright, I tried fucking so many girls just to forget about you but for some reason you don't want to get out of my head and I can't deal with this bullshit Ariana I'm going crazy"

"Marvin pleas get o-"

"These have been the worst 2 weeks ever and all I want right now is you in my arms please forgive me Ariana"

For some dumb as reason Tears started to get out of my eyes, Ariana what is wrong with you !?

"Marvin I really don't want you anywhere near me please get out" I said firmly trying to sound tough but failing miserably. He started waking to me and I started to panic.

No no no

He got closer to me and I of course , couldn't move. I looked up at his eyes and seeing him this close in a long time, made me realise why I fell for him, hard.

"Ariana, I know you want me just as much as I want you" he said , obviously drunk.

I pushed him softly and he backed away and after that we just stood there , I was looking down to my feet as I could feel him stare at me. He sat down at the edge of my bed and put his head on his hands. I finally could take a good look at him. His grey Nike sweatpants and sweater with some white nike shoes. His hair looked all messed up but somehow he still manages to look effortlessly beautiful. He looked up and caught me staring at him and he smirked.  Does he think this is funny.

" Marvin get out now" i said " you can't stay in my room I have things to do"

"Like what" he asked as he stood up and crossed his arms.

"Well! I.. you know. I just have things to do, I'm not even supposed to tell you what so just shut you're face ,and get out!" I said pointing at the door

"Shut you're face?" He laughed and looked down with a smile still hanging on his face . Wow. God man I really missed that laugh of his.  He looked back up and licked his lips as he studied me.

I rolled my sweater tighter on my body feeling conscious of his stare and looked at him.

He stared walking to me and I backed
Away until I hit the wall.

No no no

I looked up and he put both his hands on either side of me.

"I'm not gonna touch you Ariana, until you want me too , Don't worry" he said husky. Lust completely took over him and his eyes got dark. Same with mine. I guess he really got me in control.

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Sorry for not posting for so long guys , I'm completely fine don't worry ❤️